mY faTansY wOrLd

birthday?

2012-01-14T07:28:00.001+08:00

Felicia & Liyun came to my hse to give me a "surprise" at 1am last night.
Lol.
Thanks for making my birthday a little less pathetic.

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wad kind of life is this

2012-01-13T20:47:00.001+08:00

As you can see, I'm forever alone.
Even on my birthday tmr, I'm most probably alone as well.
No one asked me to go out play, shopping etc.
Yes, I'm expecting tt, since its my 18th birthday.
Fucking EIGHTEEN.
No one to celebrate for me. :(
My mum working, my sis working, another sis dun bother, fuck.
I'm so pathetic.
Eighteen birthday yet no one to celebrate it with me. :(

Why am I even in this world? Nobody loves me.
Nobody care.
I'm the only one who's busy for other's birthday.
Ahhhh…… why why??
After 18 years I still don't have close friends to celebrate my bdae with me.
Ha. Ha.

This is my pathetic life.
I bet even if one day I'm gone, no one will notice or even fucking give a damm. :'(

I want to go to an isolated planet and live on my own.
Maybe when I'm already alone, I won't feel like the whole has forgotten me……

Words just can't describe how much I want to cry and just sleep through tmr.
I want a good friend, always with me, always care....
:'(
Tmr how???
Go out on my own??
Staying at home my mum will think I'm anti social and has no friends(which is quite true).

Fuck those who I have sacrificed for and yet they've forgotten me.
Yes, one from sec2 and one from sec4.
Hope you get hell in the future!

Really hoped I've never met you guys at all.
Maybe I shouldn't have gone to Nan Chiau High School.

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I gave them up

2012-01-11T23:47:00.001+08:00

Was all emo-y last year cause of my this friend.
Well, apparently we were rather close back in those days, but now tt we've separated, I have been completely scrapped out.
Well she is still as close as before with her other sec friends I suppose, and even after all tt I've done & went thru for & with her, its really heartbreaking to know tt someone you cherished & went all out for has already regard you as JUST A FRIEND.
Fine. I shall not be emo about her anymore. Not worth it.
I'll skip her fb posts & tweets cause I don't want to know anything more, just in case I feel sad again.
Great friend you are. -.-

Anyway its a new year and I had a great start.
Stayed over at siying's and played mahjong with david and 2 of siying sec classmates. (just tt both are guys lol)
Meeting new friend at the start of a new year, GREAT! :D
then nothing much and now I'm stressing over unfinished hw. Lololol
CRAPPED… really cannt finish…
Anyways, my bdae is this Saturday!!!
Sayin this outloud here cos nobody will read, lol.
Wonder if anyone will rmbr it, ask me out or anything…
:(
I dun wann to be the one asking ppl to go out when its my bdae and by right shld be ppl ask me out mahh. :(
Walao damm sad life lahh me.
My bdae always no one celebrate it well with me de.
My mum is like…working on the day of my bdae. :(
I think she forgt it was my bdae also.
Sighhhh… :(

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outing

2011-11-26T14:14:00.001+08:00

Went sentosa with 1103 yesterday.
After schl yesterday, went home to change and go vivo meet everyone.
First I found them buying snacks at giant, denn went see see at candy empire.
Then finally went to take train to sentosa. Bought $3 tix. Lol.
Took pics and pics!!! Haha!

Reached sentosa and went outside universal studios and take pic.
Denn go walk walk at candylicious:)
Nxt go BEACH!!!
chun hsin almost drowned cause shi hui was pulling her and running, denn when she stop, she swing her arm and accidentally threw chun into the sea.
Lol!!
Chun tried to stand up but fell backwards instead and continued to sort of drown.
She was so scared cos she couldn't breathe and thought she was going to die and she cried after she came on shore.
Apparently she even.had a nightmare last night.
Poor chun!!!

Anyway, we took pics and played ball~
Denn played dog and bone, its soooo tiring!!! Lololol.
After tt went to fort siloso outside there take pics. Hehe:)
Then went bck to vivo for dinner.
Stephaine left home for dinner though.
I ate pepper lunch and denn went bck to candy empire and watched xin hui contemplate damm long to buy jelly beans. Hehe:)

After tt yilin's slipperd broke and she went to royal sportswear buy slippers.
Shi hui and I tried to find the shop but kinda failed so in the end we started looking at the clothes and earrings etc:)
Finally when we found them, yilin still choosing shoes.
Lol! Fickle minded. She dun like the straps, dun like the colour… like auntie choosing vegie at market like tt lol!!
Finally, WITH MY HELP, she bought a slippers at $10 sale. Hehe!
now left shi hui, me, yilin, xin hui, chun hsin & yanting.
Went to daiso to find ting jie and I wanted to buy a fan but just nice ting jie paid le and queue damm long, so forget it.
Xin hui bought a super cute reindeer hair band though:)
Each of us took a pic while wearing it :P
Denn we lame so went take pics with statues at the outdoors of vivo.
Too many pics lahh:))
Den chun hsin went home first.

After tt around 8.30pm, we went home.
Shi hui took a bus while the rest of us took mrt.
Sat with xin hui on the mrt & we chatted a lot.
Like quite random lehh.
Lololol:))
Denn alighted at seragoon station instead of hougang cos I feel like it:)
Denn took bus 109 home~

Got home and my hse DRASTIC CHANGES.
My neighbour moving so my mum took a lot of her furniture like tv console, book shelves, display shelf, SOFA!
Lol!!
But now my hse looks cleaner and more spacious. :)

Tmr going do hw with liyun at cp.
Hope to be productive.
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Anyway, really enjoyed myself yesterday and THANK YOU 1103!!
looking forward to SL trip next tues:)
Will post about it if I gt take pics:)

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when you're gone

2011-11-16T00:46:00.001+08:00

Life is like a movie.
It has a start and an end.
Some movies have happy ending while some has tragic endings.
Nobody knows what to expect out of the show, the various emotions,
happiness, sadness, fear…

When a movie ends, some of us gets 'withdrawal symptoms'.
We will keep thinking about the movie for awhile.

Isn't all these similar to life? Similar to watching a movie?
Fucking hate it when it happens.
Especially when its someone important to you, someone you love.

Why?
How can it be?
I just can't get over it.
How can life be so cruel at times.
How can it do this to someone so young and have been living in hardships all the while?

Why is life so unfair?

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lonely

2011-10-30T17:34:00.001+08:00

Everything they said was just nothing but a lie.
No matter how many people tell me they're there for me and what have you,
I just can't help but feel really lonely all the time.
Nothing helps anymore I guess.
Wanted to ask friends out but……I don't know who to ask.
Who will want to go out?
I don't think people are free to accompany me anytime.

Even though I'm not alone, but I'm still very lonely.

Getting sick and tired of almost everything in life.
I sleep cos I'm tired; I eat cos I need to; I study cos government wants me to; I work cos my family needs money; I talk cos I need to please others……
Nothing I do is for myself anymore.
Its always for other people.

Who will be there 24/7 for me to call, to text.
Why am I suddenly so…depressed?

I guess its cause I've always been neglected, left out.
Am I so easily taken for granted and forgotten?
Seems so.
What a sad life I have.
And nobody truly understand.
I don't need to make new friends, I just need my old friends to rmbr there's a person called Jia Wen.

I'm unimportant. Ok I get it.
I should just get used to life alone and being unloved.

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smell of freedom

2011-10-08T12:37:00.001+08:00

Smell of freedom~
2 more days of exams and I'm FREEEEEEE!!!!!

Omg I'm so looking forward!
Free means really free!
At least for now but still, the thought tt there's no more exams for the rest of the year makes me happy!!

And then I remember, there's choir. -.- sian lahh....

Screw choir!!!! ><

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One down

2011-10-02T15:13:00.001+08:00

GP done!
Muahaha!!

But now I'm stressed.
Have been focusing too much on chemistry and I haven't really touch on maths, bio and especially ell.
crappp.
Gonna study hard. :(

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bitter or sweet

2011-09-28T13:58:00.001+08:00

Boring life.
everyday I'm studying.
sick of studying already.
luckily I at least watch dragonball to kill boredom.

Eating a French bread now and studying electrolysis.
Nobody studying with me, cause I didn't ask.
perhaps I should have huh.
2pm already and I only finished redox.
3 hours studying a low class chapter, see how easily I stone and waste time?
Even now I'm also wasting time. -.-

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life

2011-09-26T00:24:00.003+08:00

everything i've been experiencing up till now makes me wonder about life.

what exactly is life?

what is human?

what are we?

what am i?

how can we decided what is what on earth, in the outerspace, or in the world?

so you keep telling me that life is fair, what comes around goes around.

so when will my time come?

when will life be well for me?

yea yea.

i'm too young to be sprouting all these shit.

but seriously, do you live my life?

do you know how my life is like?

have you any idea?

no. you don't.

so shut your trap.

every single day, i'm haunted by money issues.

i want to buy lunch, i'll still have to consider how much i should spend.

i use spoiled bags, spoiled files, just so tt i can save money and not waste,

i dont even dare to ask for allowance every week do you know that?

i'll just quietly wait for my mum to ask if i have money and she gives me.

how pathetic my life is.

just typing makes me feel like crying.

yet there are people who are wasteful.

they splurge on branded goods like its nothing,

they always talk big and when it comes to class tee etc,

they have no qualms designing the most expensive shirt ever.

think about us? think about me? i've no money.

struggling with life every day.

we even have to beg others to borrow money to pay bills etc.

every month, we have to look at others' faces and bow down to them.

and the worst thing is, we cant do anything about this life, this silly pathetic life of ours, of mine.

i hate feeling so helpless, so lost, so unloved, so alone.

its like the whole world is against me and no one is there for me.

i swear i'll work hard, work hard and get a good job, a good pay,

and repay my mum for her love and her care and her hardwork.

i'll give every single cent to her, to let her go for spa, go for high tea, go play pool.......etc

so just let me grow up already.

stop letting me feel so horrible cause my mum has to suffer all this for me.

when i cant fucking do a single thing to help.

need someone to save me.

but who can?

i'm so sensitive, when you start to ignore me,

i feel as though i did something terribly wrong and you're hating me.

i always self pity, like right now, and i have 0 confidence in myself.

i may look strong, i may seem composed and firm,

but inside, i'm weak, fragile and cold.

i'm like tt island in the picture,

all alone stranded in the sea.

yes, i'm bhb and i'm here to say,

i want a loving husband in the future.

yes, i'm materialistic, life made me this way,

i want my husband to be rich.

我总需要人陪。

我需要被爱。

我讨厌现在的生活。

我要改变。

我要离开这个可悲的生活。

我会成功的。

我会让瞧不起我的人对我另眼相看。

我要他们后悔现在这样对待我。

我们一家一定会好起来的。

一定。

life's so screwed.

long awaited

2011-09-21T09:57:00.001+08:00

Finally, after months and months of suffering, PROMOS IS HERE!!
9 more days and test test test.

I really can't wait for promos to end.
I hope I'll do well...
Have been studying EVERY SINGLE DAY!
Reeeeeaaaallllyyy no life.
Every night sleep damm late also.
Sighh....

I miss my friends.
I miss going out with them.

Seriously, how does one live without good friends, true friends, best friends………

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holidays

2011-09-01T16:26:00.001+08:00

ITS…TEACHERS' DAY!!! :))

Have been mugging real hard for all these time!!
I actually followed my intensive schedule! :)

Well, actually my schl celebrated Tday yesterday when NCHS and other schls celebrate it today.
but it was fine. Cause yesterday when we nc peeps went bck nchs, we had teachers all to ourselves!
Chatted with weng lao shi for like an hour~ heheh.
denn went to distribute the cookies angela jingrong and I baked. :D
had fun!! :p

Denn after tt went to mum's shop at amk hub.
helped out instead of studying. -.-
But ok lahh. I tried a lot of clothes, very fun!!

Well, tts all for now, going bck to mugging~
Its FIRST SEPTEMBER!!
happy first day of the month :D

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SINGAPORE

2011-08-09T17:33:00.001+08:00

Today is Singapore's 46th birthday!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!!

meanwhile I'm at home studying.
Doing notes on genetic basis of variation.
There's a test on Friday!! :(

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BACK TO SCHOOL

2011-08-07T17:49:00.001+08:00

Back to nan chiau for shines.
My family!!

Friends are the family we choose for ourselves.

I chosen these ppl yo:)
Anyway, it was quite boring, except for the fact tt i dedicated 2 songs(mr simple & goodbye baby) for free :D
extort my council juniors:))

Met vanessa early in the morning, 10am, and took the same bus to nc.
we both woke up late lahh:) LOL
denn reached schl and walked arnd but nothing much.
Gt my ncym pass and bought a I <3 nc badge.
Denn sat at council booth thruout.
Denn after it ended, walked to cp with fwah under the super hot sun.
And I wandered in cp for half an hour waiting for liyun:)
Ate zinger meal, now going home.

Anyway, my life have been revolving around studies everyday, so nothing much to say.
But denn, I NEED $$$

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gOLDEN days

2011-07-04T13:13:00.001+08:00

gOLDEN days…so many things coming to an end this year.Transformers has ended, Harry Potter is ending too, and recently, I just finished watching Inuyasha Final Act and Ghost Hunt. >Published with Blogger-droid v1.6.8

unfairness

2011-06-28T00:30:00.001+08:00

This world is unfair.
Nothings fair.
some are born smart, born pretty,
while some are born with handicaps, born ugly.
Some ppl take credits of others work, enjoy the fruits of others' hard labour.
some ppl study hard, very hard, but they still do not do as well as the naturally smart ppl who doesn't even study.
some ppl are born with a silver spoon, while some are born to live in poverty.

Will there ever be a day where everything is fair?

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anyhow

2011-06-19T17:28:00.001+08:00

Some times, the pictures tt I post are unrelated ones...
sighh....

I'm still leading a boring life.
Everyday I want to study but always fail.
Watch shows, eat food, go sleep, walk arnd...
how to do...??

Anyway, I'll be going council camp to study nxt week.
Hopefully I can accomplish more then.

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best of best

2011-06-19T00:17:00.001+08:00

I just want a best friend.
Someone who treats me as the most important person in his/her life.
I want to be the first person you call when you want to talk.
I want to be the first person you think of when ppl ask u about ur friends.
I know I sound selfish, but I really want a best friend.
I know I have people always there for me, but to them, I'm a good friend, an important person maybe, but I'll never be important enough.
I'm like a come-and-go person to everyone.

When I'm upset and I want to tell someone about it, even though I know I can tell many, but I'm always afraid if I'm imposing them.
because I'm not the most important friend afterall.

In the end, I'm just a nobody.

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holidays?

2011-06-08T10:13:00.001+08:00

Holidays holidays.
Before june kept on thinking tt this june holidays I will relax, play, go work etc.
but denn, there's midyear exam right when school reopens.
so…holidays? Nahh.. don't think so.
So wad have I done. Right after gp ppr on last day of schl, I have class exco camp. Denn immediately after tt gt 5 days of pre u seminar.
Total 8 days of camp. ><
After camp asked peiyi and liyun out to chit chat, then saw ms mai!
She wanted us to have lunch with ms pey do now still planning in progress :)
Denn have been studying out with felicia:)
Now when I'm studying alone at home...I'm so inefficient:(
Den today going sentosa.
Agreed to go cause fwah is going, but nao she can't go, but I can't just dump jaslyn alone, so I'm still going.
but I'll probably go home earlier, like… as soon as possible lorr:)
Ok now waiting for fwah to eat mac breakfast:D

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exams

2011-05-26T21:04:00.001+08:00

Exam!!!
it officially starts TOMORROW!
yea well, after gp ppr, I'm totally screwed.
it'll be camp all the way for 8 freaking days.
And I dunno if these 8 days are gonna be worthwhile.
-.-
still gotta study for the rest of the MYE…
totally stressed out.
I dunno when but somewhere down the road I've became really slack.
I wasn't like tt in the past, in pri schl, in sec 1, Sec 2.
guess it all started in sec 3.
gosh. Being slack really killed my dreams.
Now I HAVE to make it up to myself.
I really don't want to fail my mid years...
I want to pass it, so that I can continue to take 4 H2 next year...
dammit.
it seems so hard! :(
Gahh!!!!

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dun bother

2011-05-17T10:01:00.001+08:00

I dunno if its your words or the way I'm treated that's made me mad.
well, wadeva already.
I'll just accept the truth.
they say truth always hurts, well no doubt about it.
I've said my piece so I'll just leave it as that then.

I'm going to forget, forget the past
cause the good times are what made me so sad.
Tyvm.

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slack

2011-05-10T17:34:00.001+08:00

These few weeks all have holidays. So very slack.
but the thing is... I'm too slack.
Just don't feel like doing work and kept on stalling and procrastinating.
my ways of slacking is to watch BARBIE MOVIES!
lol!
Well, on sat, 7may, I went to fwah's hse with feli, alphon and riduan:)
Movie marathon. We watched rapunzel, scream 3 and mean girls 2. The last movie is a waste of time..
hahaha:)

Anyway, I'm so slack, I'm really guilty about it.
I'm so sorry!!!
I really must buck up for my mid year and promos and eventually, a levels.
Ahhh.... STRESS MUCH??!!!
SHIT SHIT SHIT! :(

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optimistic

2011-04-26T20:28:00.001+08:00

Optimistic... finally!
After a break, some outings,
I see a life again.
good :)
even though I have hw to be done,
I still feel optimistic and light hearted.
Spose this is a good sign.
And I seem to be getting better along with my classmates,
phew.
my pw group seem hopeful too.
good.... finally!
:D

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Tired.

2011-04-22T01:02:00.004+08:00

sick?
nahh....
i just wanted sleep.
so didnt go to school. kept on sleeping....
went to get MC, the doc gave me cure dizziness medicine and my MC
walao... $20....
zzzzzz
wadeva.
at least i got my sleep.
this week can die.
tts why i didnt post for the past 4 days.

monday 7.30am gt chem lessons
tues chiong bio notes.
wed bio test plus chiong pi until 3am.
thurs, i heck care. get my MC and sleep.

haiix......
next week can get better??
likee.... please......

%#%^&*(&(&^&$#$#$#%^&%^^@#

still friends?

2011-04-17T01:26:00.001+08:00

Are we still friends?
You seem very detached from us now...
Like wad she said, we all got a new life, everybody's busy, everybody's stress.
But if we can ignore all this and find time, why can't you.
Everyone's changing, but our heart for each other did not.
Did yours change?
It seems to be tt way.
We've been replaced and forgotten in a matter of months.
So wad does the years of friendship count as?
Unimportant?
We dun feel tt way.
That's why we're really hurt.

What more can we do?
If you still have us in your heart,
you will definitely do something about it right?
But you're not.
So does tt mean....
I dun wann to infer anymore.

Hate this.

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napfa

2011-04-12T16:19:00.001+08:00

My fwens~~~
Hehe. :)

Ahh... gt napfa lehh...
I fail my standing board jump and sit up!!!
At least sit up everyday do abit can improve...
standing board jump how???
Everyday jump at home mehh??
Later my house collapse lahh!!
Siann...

How...how???

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expectations

2011-04-11T18:35:00.001+08:00

Am I expecting too much from myself?
I kept aiming for As but maybe I just can't get them..
maybe all these while I've been stressing myself too much because of SCHOLARSHIP?
Should I continue to aim so high?
Or should I just learn to forget it and let go and just be simple, not outstanding?

I'm dying because of school.
FML.

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boring day

2011-04-10T14:34:00.001+08:00

Today... is homework day again.
So nothing much.

But yesterday, I spent the whole day reading manga!
Addicted again!! :)
yay manga yay!!

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sleep

2011-04-09T07:51:00.001+08:00

I desperately need SLEEP!!!
this whole week i haven't been sleeping properly...
and also, yesterday was awkward as usual as I kept on seeing choir ppl.
I'm think I'm this embarrassed because of the way I failed.
I blanked out...totally.
suddenly didn't noe how to sing even though I KNOW how to. ><
Accident.

Today, right now, I'm at raffles convention centre waiting to get my $400.
Well, at least I'll get some money for my emo week.

I want to sleep.

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should I...

2011-04-07T18:16:00.001+08:00

Should I be happy?
I've been emoing for the past few months..
life's hard, no denial.
NOTHING is going well at all.
I feel so disheartened by every single thing tt happened.
life is nt as great as it used to be.

If I'm still in nc, weng lao shi will surely be there to listen to me, to comfort me...
One of the things tt I'll never forget about nchs is having weng lao shi as my form teacher.
Just look at the pic, it says all.
everytime I look at it, I tear.
she's like an angel sent to me to guide me in life.
she has not only taught me subjects, but also how to live my life.
with her, I view things differently, I do things differently...
Some of her wise and caring words will always stay with me.
really want to be taught by her again.

翁老师, 真希望我还能够有这个荣幸能再成为您的学生。

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FML

2011-04-07T00:44:00.001+08:00

I failed syf audition and cried like shit.
now my eyes sting... ouch...
fml.
hate it.
talk so much about loving music, sing not for awards... pui lahh.
if tts the case, denn everyone will participate.
And not discriminate us like tt.
u think its nt demoralising??
Bullshit.
its nt just demoralising, its also disheartening, discriminating...
now I'm labelled as the 'failures'.

Wadeva it is, NCHS CHORALE STILL ROCKS THE MOST.

Sorry nanyang, you just can't replace nchs in my heart.

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What are words

2011-04-05T22:25:00.001+08:00

Today schl sucked...big time.
My gp tutor is still as bad...
haiix... really must kao myself...

Anyway, came home and blah blah blah.
in the midst of all these shit I went thru todat, listened to this song-
What Are Words by Chris Medina
super awesome song!!!
Highly recommended!!
Cried while singing along.
I miss my dad.

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happy?

2011-04-04T18:19:00.002+08:00

arr~~~

i dun wan to study anymore lahh...

can we seriously get a break or something...

grrr.

PI PI PI!!!!!

my head is gonna explode soon.....

School

2011-04-04T16:08:00.002+08:00

In the morning ran my 2.4km again and I passed!!

hehe:))

Denn lessons all the way.

haiix.

luckily pw lesson ms teng gave us free period.

rested and revised chem.

Speaking of chem, I fell asleep during chem lecture:)

Denn during gp, I totally dun understand..

haiix...

confirm fail...

Denn I drew the above picture.

Hahahas.

pardon me for my foul language up there. :(

siann..

So many things to do, but so little time. ><

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SUPER JUNIOR

2011-04-03T16:53:00.001+08:00

Waiting for super junior's comeback!
SUPER JUNIOR HWAITING!!

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Bai Bai

2011-04-03T14:43:00.001+08:00

Went to bai bai today.
Realised tt I've been forgetting his face as time goes by..
but when I see his face on his urn, I feel...nostalgic?
Its been so long since I've seen him, since I've talked to him....
yes. I know.
I miss him.

Papa, 我好想你。

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Friends

2011-04-02T14:55:00.001+08:00

Even though I haven't seen them for... a few weeks??
But here we are, studying together in my house: )
I love my friends!

Wads disappointting is tt the closer ones... we seem to be getting out of touch.
Haiix...

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Back

2011-04-01T19:07:00.004+08:00

suddenly feel like blogging....

dunno whether i'll blog for a long time or not. hmm..

i always fail at constantly posting... lol.

today i feel damm emo.

like the whole world doesnt care about me.

somemore i had stomachache... like shit.

in class, the pain is so painful tt i cried like shit in school.

haiix...

In school

2011-04-01T10:39:00.001+08:00

Now is maths lecture!

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Back After Prelim 1

2010-05-23T19:40:00.002+08:00

haiiz..
prelim one was super uper stressful
anyway, many things happened during this long and i forgot alot.
yesterday i went out to watch The Losers with fwah peiyi jaslyn jialin and guys.
after tt bought a puzzle and went to fwahs to fix until 11+pm.
lol.
we're super random...
but the puzzle is still nt done yet.
denn just nw mum suddenly came bck with a laptop and a camera.
nw i'm using my new hp laptop.
it feels kinda normal..
and i'm not excited..
hahas,
i'm numb to any emotions le?
well, i'm not gonna touch my blog for quite some time in the future..
dun really feel like blogging...
haiiz
hope prelim 2 and 3 and O LEVEL will be GOOD.

btw, i fell in love with cho kyu hyun.
<3

2010-04-27T18:41:00.000+08:00

today.... i stepped down.

BBQ

2010-04-24T23:04:00.000+08:00

bbq today
will talk about it tomorrow XD
today is 24/4

STEPPING DOWN

2010-04-14T18:09:00.002+08:00

reading my old post, from 2007!
lol
found lots of my writing style and the way i spell some words veri diff from now.
so tts concludes a veri important point.
I'VE CHANGED.
yup, i have.
i've become older, a better person etc and most importantly, a better LEADER.
in sec 3, took up leadership roles.
head of discipline of student council and head of logistic of choir.
never regret joining both.
i like the duties of a councillor, especially an exco's.
as an exco, i've learnt a lot a lot a lot!
from planning the investiture to council camp to teachers day to student forum....
i've really grown and gained priceless experiences tt other students can never get.
i'm serious.
denn as a choir member, i get to perform.
i've been performing as a choir member since i was PRIMARY 2.
i've always loved the feeling of being on stage and listenting to the applause after our performance.
now, i'm gonna say goodbye.
but b4 i'm gone, there's one last thing i needa do.
choose the correct leader to lead both ccas.
though council's one is confirmed, but we CAN still change or sack....
and choir, it really needs a good leader.
up till now, there's none.
tts why leona and i are troubled by this problem..
haiiz....

if i could, i would like to stay on... continue on...
but i know... 人生总有悲欢离合. 长江后浪推前浪，世上旧人换新人。
its time tt i HAVE to let go.
we must always learn to give up some things in life so as to acheive something bigger.
haiiz....
imust learn to loosen my hands now...
its just so sad.

LAST PERFORMANCE.

2010-04-10T23:15:00.005+08:00

it has been so fast.
its like i had just entered choir in nchs and now..... i'm out.
today is the last performance.
the last time to SING as a member of NC CHORALE.
though i've been passive about it in the past,
i feel a sense of loss when i'm leaving it.

today woke up at 9+.
denn slack in bed for awhile and finally gt up at 10.20am
went to clean up and started to tie my bun,
super difficult!!!
so in the end, mum helped me.
tied 'plates' denn make into a bun.
reached schl at 11.35 with my silver shoes on.
reached there and immediately went to canteen and stood for a few sec.
denn took a schl bus and went to nyp.
once there, rushed to change into gown and rehearsals started.
lol.
sang quite well but with a few hiccups.
denn went for lunch before practicing a little more.
denn went in for finale!!
we sang "goodbye.... goodbye..... goodbye...... GOODBYE~~~~."
hahahas
very funny.
denn rested awhile and second rehearsal started.
waited at the backstage for like... 30mins!!!
cause CO was tuning and changing soem parts of their song...
zzzzz
fell asleep.
woke up when its finally our turn.
denn, saw MS YIN!!!!
muahahahahaha.
denn went out and SANG.
it was GOOD!
denn practiced.... and practiced.... and practiced....
and like suddenly we started eating dinner.
i felt as if its only 3+, but it was already 5+!!!
denn finale... ms kong went abit insane.
she suddenly told us not to do any special moves, all we can do is bow.
=.=
every cca buay song liao lorr...
denn we rested awhile and started warm ups.
we formed a circle around ms yin and started singing waltzing matilda.
after tt, ms yin made us sing STOPPING BY THE WOODS, JOY TO THE WORLD, WHEN YOU BELIEVE, KAMI.
when we sang when you believe,
wenxuan and i had started our waterworks...
denn when it came to kami!!!, every sec 4 and 5 cried, our tears are like a stream of water flowing out from a loose tap...
denn we sat down and touched up our make up and waited for our turn
and FINALLY! ITS OUR TURN!!!!!!
waited at the backstage as usual,
denn ppl went siao by jumping arnd,
immitating the erhu players...
lol
went up and stage, AND ITS MY LAST TIME!,
denn smiled and started singing.
WALTZING MATILDA, JOIKU, CAI DIAO.
ppl laughed when we sang joiku cause we went "Um Pe E Zi KA O Oh ...."
hahahas.
but nevertheless, we continued singing and u noe wad,
IT WAS REALLY DAMM GOOD!!!!!!!
APPLAUSE!!!!!!! XD
our ending for joiku was damm 'zai' and cool!!!!
after the whole performance,
went out of the auditorium, to the concourse, and the teachers debriefed us.
first was ms yin.
hers was really touching and we(sec 4&5) all cried...
oh man!~~~
denn followed by mrs hoo and ms yong...
continued to cry as usual..
hahaha
(i was constantly disturbed by shuhui cause i was crying., wtf. cannot be emotional mehh?!)
denn went bck to holding to wait for finale.
took pics with many many frens and teachers and ms yin!
hohohohoho.
finally, FINALE!!!!!
we were screaming and screaming and screaming!!!!!
and denn CURTAINS CLOSED and our last moment on the stage ended.
:[
really very sad.
changed bck into choir tee and skirt in the holding rm(unglam!)
and denn went home ON MY OWN.
cause my mum dun wan to come drive me home.
luckily i walked to a bus stop tt only has bus 72!!!
hahahahas
reached home at 10.45+...pm.
now is 11.37.
^^
gtg shower and sleep.

YOU are always LOVED,
[NAN CHIAU ONE AND ONLY, CHOIR ]

JOSH DUHAMEL

2010-03-28T22:13:00.002+08:00

a pic from When In Rome

Josh and Fergie :D

HOT!!

from transformer...

26 and 27

2010-03-28T21:39:00.003+08:00

gonna talk about wad happened on 26 march and 27 march.

firstly,
26 march celebrated schl anniversary,
by right its a schl holi, just needa go bck and perform.
but mrs ng wanted us bck to have maths lessons.
went bck at 10 and she treated us to mac!
hohoho
after tt i went to council rm blow air con and borrow money to buy felicia's bdae cake.
denn went home.
at home, did some bio and denn went bck to schl for choir..
lol
performance at arnd 6plus.
not bad lahh.
its my LAST performance in SCHOOL.
my very last performance in choir will be the public performance..
haiiz....
denn went to council rm,
chit chat awhile and went to compass to buy cake.
claris father drove me to compass!!! thank you thank you!
denn after i bought a cake,
walked bck to schl and waited in the council rm.
i walked arnd the schl and went to the canteen and chatted with seniors and farren etc.
lol
finally was celebrating felicia's bdae time.
vanessa and i went out of the council rm to light up the cake and den she switched off the lights in the council rm while i brought the cake in and we sung felicia a bdae song!
hohoho XD
after tt, i scrapped a fingerfull of cream from the cake and smeared it onto felicia's face.
tts when the cake fight started!
haha
the boys didnt just played with the cream,
they even threw the cake every where!!!
hahaha
denn cleaning up was super tedious and disgusting!!!
ewww...
mopped the floor of the corridor and council rm!!!
finally went home...
slept at 2++ sia.
also dunno wad i was doing..
=.=

27 march,
morning 6+ i woke up and went to schl for meeting,
all the time thinkin it was 7am.
in the end,
its 8!!!
grrr....
shuyi and i pissed off...
haiiz...
denn realised riduan last night reached home at 4am+ cause he missed the last train home and only slept for 1 hour plus,
worser than my 3+hours of sleep.
zzz
meeting streched all the way from 8.30 to 11.12.
wahh..
we discussed about 13 things lehh...
i went off 12 mins earlier cause i have eng oral prac with ms teo.
during the practice,
i kept on laughin and we skipped my turn for like 2-3 times.
hahahaz.
cuz shao zchuen keeps on make me laugh.
finally it ended at 12 and i rushed home on my mum's car.
went to cp at 1.30+ and fetched peiyi and went to uncle's 'restaurant' for lunch.
uncle paid for it so it was free lehh...
denn my mum dropped peiyi and i at amk hub.
we went to watch When In Rome!!!!
OMG!!!!
peiyi treated me!!! $10.. thank you!!
the show SUPER INTERESTING!!!!
LOVE IT!
kristen bell is so pretty, though she's kinda miniature (1.5m tall)
josh duhamel is HOT!!!
he's 38 lerhh!!!!!
he's also acting in Transformer as one of the soldiers,
the one with a baby....
lol
apparently his gf is Fergie who is 35,
but it looks like fergie is older lehh..
lol
but he's SDH!!!! (super duper HOT)
hahahahahaha
the story had a nice ending :D
after the movie,
went to look for wallet for peiyi,
in the end couldnt find any...
=(
denn we separated and i went to hougang pt to meet my mum and bought my sis' dinner.
went home and stare blankly at the tv cause my brain cannt function le.
denn went to the rm and laid down,
only wanted to rest awhile and denn wake up to brush up.
but in the end.... i fell super soundly asleep.
and denn i was wearing the shirt and shorts tt i wore to the movies etc.
lol.
this morning woke up with my tongue feeling numb.
probably due to lack of sleep.

28 march
today lahh.
chiong hw.
i tried my best!!!
but just couldnt finish!!!!
heck.
not really tired right now but not very awake either..
hahaha
i'm so NOT looking forward to tomorrow..
haiiz....
choir until 6, confirm cannot do hw le..
cause i'll be very tired...
arrrr!!!!!

clique tee is out!!! woohooo!!!!!

STUPID PHONE

2010-03-24T20:57:00.000+08:00

seriuosly.
was super freaked out by my phone.
its all due to the internet... surfing facebook.
=.='''
so lame right?
its extremely expensive!!!!
crap.
i was so scared i cried in class lehh...
denn totally no mood for rehearsal.
but still went and sang and SMILED.
damm.
cant believe myself.
i shld go become an actress man~~~
zzzzz

GALAXY

2010-03-21T22:55:00.000+08:00

changed a new phone.
touch screen phone from samsung named SAMSUNG GALAXY.
haven try it out yet but hope it'll be good.
its from mum's plan.
my plan can only change after 31 august...
so...
kinda excited kinda not cause tomorrow schl's reopening...
nervous!!!!

CLOSED EYES

2010-03-19T18:54:00.002+08:00

after stressing so much,
today, i finally felt extreme tiredness.
kept on wanting to fall asleep when i was on my way home from choir.
and even after i reached home,
i felt SUPER tired.
now, i'm just pushing myself to blog cause i found something just now..

i was closing my eyes, resting,
and denn i heard a song tt i've been hearing for many years.
but then, this time, i heard something new.
i've always focus on the singer, the main melody,
but just now, the only thing i heard was the harmony.
the harmony made the main melody stands out and sound very nice.
ppl usually miss out the harmony,
but i realised its extremely important.
just like in choir or anyother orchestras,
there cant be only one section,
the music will suck.

i suppose its the same logic as humans.
XD

PISSED

2010-03-11T16:54:00.002+08:00

first was chem ppr.
ms leow set wrong question and cause i didnt understand the question,
i skipped it and in the end forgot to put in an answer and i lost one mark
when ALL OPTIONS ARE ACCEPTED!!
why dont they just void tt question and give everyone tt one mark.
we didnt put an answer is also because we dunno wadd tt question is asking about mahh.
zzzz

denn its council blog.
scolding me on the blog.
if you're unhappy with me, why not just come face to face and scold me?
and u call yourself a councillor.
isn't it COMMON SENSE that NOBODY in this world is PERFECT?!
if u think i'm not perfect, fine, cause u yourself is imperfect too.
and u got an offence because its YOUR fault,
i'm not tt free to give offences here and there.
sometimes i also pretend i never see and walk away.
i've even typed the areas that WE, not just me, will be looking out for.
and u just have to make a mistake in tt area and now u're blaming me.
wow.
i really doubt your maturity is high enough to even be in student council.
and just when we've gone thru a cyber bullying talk yesterday.
apparently someone just doesnt learn and is not paying attention to the talk.
shut your trap and shoo off,
everyone will dislike someone, and obviously u just have to live with tt idiot.

THE WORST

2010-03-08T20:05:00.002+08:00

my results are downright shitty.

my emaths, i careless 9 marks!!!!
my amaths, i careless 11 marks!!!
my bio, i careless 4 marks!!!
my chem, i careless at least 4 marks!!!!
my physic, gone... i careless like half of the paper. =.=

there's also other subs but i didnt really pay attention to my careless mistakes..
argh!!!!!
betta ask my mum to go meet weng lao shi so tt weng lao shi can calm her down,
otherwise she'll just slaughter me.. =.=
super disappointed with myself..
zzzz

the, most insensitive and annoying teacher for me is e.o (elizabeth oh)
..........................
so.. this is about it lahh...

ARGH

2010-03-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

CT ended
but will still need to go thru the torture of going thru the scripts.
haiiz....
and hw came like a fountain..
if i cannot finish denn i giving up..
dun care.
I NEED MY SLEEP!!!
I'M SO SERIOUSLY SLEEP-DEPRIVED!!!!
currently using cousin's laptop cause my internet modem spoiled.
wadeva...

went to watch ALICE IN WONDERLAND on fri (5 march)
SUPER DUPER WOTH WATCHING!!!
jonny depp, as usual, shines like hell... no.. shld be like the sun/diamond etc.
hahaha
mia(alice) not too bad but starting of the movie she looked really pale and scary
and her clothes not nice.
only until she went to wonderland denn she started to grow some style.
anne hathway(white queen), she beautiful and classy and elegant and very girly and gentle..
lol
helena(red queen), is really CUTE!
though she's cruel, but its because ppl always laugh at her big head...
i pity her lahh...
><

now hoping to finish emaths from 4.3 up to 4.5....
tts basically all lahh...
if cannot den at least finish up to 4.4
causse 4.5 2 questions tomorrow denn chiong or wad lorr...
hmm...
nxt week holis,
but got lessons lahh, sec 4 lehh
anyway,
i'm not gonna go for choir camp...
cause even my mum says its a waste of time since i'm already graduating denn wads the point..
=,=
i'd "book" an "appointment" with jaslin they all then..
HOHOHOHOHO.
or can have the long awaited EXCOS OUTING (with all 8 excos)
MUAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

EXAM

2010-02-27T13:21:00.006+08:00

today is Physic SPA.
cant give info on it but for me its average lahh

next week is common test.
now memorising ss essay.
bleahx.
hope will do well.
:D

argh. i'm fat!!!
=.=

STUCK IN BETWEEN

2010-02-21T15:34:00.003+08:00

now i'm choosing..
should i be a gynaecologist/obstetrician?
OR
should i be a pediatrician?
argh!!!

lets not talk about the salaries cause its not important.
first, i want to be a doctor tt concerns CHILDREN.
so above are my 2 choices.
i nkow i've chosen gynae b4, but now tt i think of it,
gynae needs to peform surgeries - cut ppl!!! OMG!!!!
and denn if i fail to help someone and tt person dies how??
i'll be guilty my WHOLE life!!!!
so i very scared now....
denn pediatrician is about medicine for children..
safer but if give wrong medicine also.....

so in conclusion,
both jobs are dangerous.
but pediatrician seem to be more safe...
it suits me more bahh
i like to be more safe...
hmmm

arghhh
i'm really stuck in between...
=.=

TIRING DAY

2010-02-21T00:10:00.002+08:00

woke up at 6plus cause last night told mum needa go schl today,
denn she thought today was normal schl day and frantically woke me up.
=.=
denn i'm super tired.
went bck to sleep and woke up again at 7.30am.
washed up and went for one hour of bio.
learnt about inheritance.
so fun!!!

denn got American Maths Competition training.
its nothing much actually.
they just make us go there to do 10 questions.
the last few questions quite tough.
out of 10 questions, i got 5 right, 1 wrong, and 4 left blank.
leave blank also got points lehh...
lols.
denn went to cp and had Mac with jaslyn and fwah.
denn bus-ed home.
felt like sleeping lehh..
but denn i played rollercoaster tycoon until 4.30pm.
bathed, dried my hair and dressed.
denn felt tt my hair is quite untidy so tied it up.
and i used 1 HOUR TO TIE IT UP!!!!!
wahh... i pro horr...
=.=
denn took 159 to aunt's house with my sis,
after 15mins,
my mum drove me to cp from my aunt's house.
went to library return books and denn to value shop and bought green tea and marshmallows and umbrella.
denn met up with leona.
sat in her aunt's minivan and we went to VCH.
saw the 'prom girl' and denn collected tickets and went into the hall.
the choir concert is by Anderson Sec.
it costs $12 and me and leona felt its not worth it when everything ends.
cause the choir only sang 6 songs,
and their a capella singers, the first grp really sucked.
they went off tune so many thousand times!!!
so anyway, for OUR choir concert, we sang 12 SONGS LEHH,
and our ticket only $8!!!!!
=.=
took mrt bck to hougang denn bus-ed 165.
on the bus,
gt 2 guys kept staring at me and the girl beside me.
i thought something's wrong with me lehh..
denn when the girl beside me got off the bus,
they were staring at her legs cause she wear super-short shorts.
oh... denn i understand,
they're perverts... =.=
and denn when its my turn to get off the bus,
i dash out lehh...
phew..
walked home and now feel like sleeping..
argh...
haven do home work yet lehh....

and just now heard alot of popping sounds.
thought someone was putting fireworks downstairs but dun have lehh.
and denn realise its fireworks due to chingay, thanks to fwah's post on fb.
:D

so... tup.
tts about it.
my very, extremely TIRING DAY~~~~~

FINALLY

2010-02-18T19:35:00.003+08:00

finally.....

i'm back to post...
hmm...
these 12 days have been really hard for me.
tts why i didnt blog, THERE'S NO TIME!
anyway,
sometimes its because i'm too lazy to type.
hahahahas.

now i finally realised tt no matter how hard i practice maths,
how hard i prepare for maths test,
IT'LL NEVER GO WELL!!!
crap.
blame it on my brains...

test test test.
sec 4 life is really BORED.
there's nothing much i can do.
zzzzz
one more week and it'll be common test.
=.=
and now my cousins are coming bck from indonesia.
u can nvr imagine how BAD my feeling is.
f them.

nowadays,
i'm becoming more and more emotional and have been crying more and more...
especially at night.
will always think of HIM.
how i missed him.
=.=
like..... zzzzzzzzzzz
nvm.

wadeva la..
and now council stuffs is also getting on my nerves.
so frustrated with life right now.
need to get over it soon.

BAD DAY

2010-02-06T17:17:00.003+08:00

i am utterly stressed out...

today flag day.
i was late....
reached at 11 when i should have reached at 10.45.
denn got my tin and called peixin.
they had gone without me.
walao.
i was super sian lah...
zzz
denn she told me to go bishan find them.
so wadeva lorr...
took mrt to serangoon denn circle line.
when i reach bishan,
peixin called to tell me to go to red line cause they wanna go ang mo kio.
found them at last.
went to ang mo kio cause bishan too many ppl.
thenn we splitted into grps.
me peixin and jingrong one grp,
runan qiaopo and qien another grp.
my grp went to stand outside this fashion side door there de staircase and ask for donations.
seriously...
its thru this flag day tt i realise how HORRIBLE singapore teenagers are.
when they see us,
they siam, run away, walk one big round to avoid us.
like we so dumb dunno...
zzz
the elderlys are SO KIND.
they just came up to us and donated.
denn there are some youngsters, 20-30yrs old,
diao us!!!
heck lahh...
and there's one guy who called peixin money faced!!!
wth...
he dun wann donate denn shoo off lahh..
not like we're BEGGING him for his 10cents.
=.=
we stood there until 2.30pm.
finally gave out all the stickers and denn took 159 bck to compass.
returned the tin and went for lunch cum dinner with jingrong at subway.
peixin went home first...
came bck home and heck care my mum.
didnt call her to tell her tt i reached..
hmph.
wadeva.
i'm so mad at her.
damm

and now i'm so stress
homework. homework homework.
test test test
now my life is like ONLY revolving around these stupid things lahh
crap.

EXTREME ANGER

2010-02-03T20:03:00.002+08:00

fuck.

i failed... by 1 mark.

and my mum says i'm STUPID!!!

wtf!!!!

she thinks its easy to do this test??!!!!

how many ppl failed??!!!

and those who passed, they passed with flying colours arr?!??!!!

no lorr..

its just sad case and too bad tt i failed by merely 1 mark,

and she says i'm STUPID.

if i studied for the graphs,

and i failed, fine. i'm bound to fail.

wtf.

i didnt even noe got graphs lorr!!!

so i dunno how to do lahh!!!!

so by right i shld have passed!!!!

asshole freaking dumb paper.

the teachers already noe tt ppl will fail,

so why give us this test early of the year and demoralise us!!!!

and then now they're giving us a retest!!!

wad crap is this?!!

i'm so freaking fucked up right now!!!

STRESSFUL

2010-01-30T10:19:00.004+08:00

first, i think i'm having a liking to twilight saga...
maybe it's because of the books...
but it's surely not because of the movies...
hmmm

now, i' m guessing tt i'm getting more and more stressed up..
=.=
last week thurs,
amaths test.
TOTALLY FLUNKED IT!!!
heck.
like half the questions down there i dunno how to do lahh!!!
denn wednesday was really.... i dunno... stress???
when i was doing the test my hands were shaking lehh...
crap.
denn friday,
choir was... sparse...
there's no sec3s since its sec 3 camp,
and ms yin didnt come,
so went for sectionals.
sec 4s went to string rm to let sec 2s be independant.
lol..
our sectionals very shuai one..
sit on chairs and fool arnd while singing..
we still managed to finish the whole song of waltzing matilda...
hahahaha
denn combine and thought tt nt bad except for some hiccups..

next week will be EXTREMELY very STRESSFUL!
monday - HCL test
tues - Chem test
wed - Eng Essay test + HCL test + E.Geo retest
thurs - Bio test + amaths test
fri - Physic test + E.Geo Essay test

like wtf??
so MANY tests!!!
i'll go crazy man~~~
grahh!!!!!!
all 7 subs got test lehh!!!
left emaths but emaths cannot test yet cause teacher teaching amaths.
wth....
>.<
gonna stress....

going for a haircut l8er...
hope it'll look nice...
zzzzz

my psp is not working..
maybe its because no batt..
i dunno and i'm worried.
crap lahh!!!

SHOPPING

2010-01-24T12:49:00.003+08:00

reply taggies:
Jaslin - hahahas. i'll try XD
Kappa Shoe Velcro Girl / Charcoal
this pair of shoes looks nice...
but it cost $32...
=.=
cant afford...
zzzzz
found it on desmond's blogshop
http://shoehub.blogspot.com/

yesterday went to far east plaza with angela to buy new year clothes.
we're like siao lorr..
walk here walk there..
we walked around for more then 6 hours can!!!
i only bought 1 shirt, zzz i was only allowed to buy 1.
hahaahs.
angela bought 2..
and its because i force her to go try denn she decide one lorr!!!
muahahahahahaha
denn we went arnd looking for shoes...
haiiz
didnt find any nice one..
denn went to wisma to get her phone repaired,
and went to hougang mall's Cotton On to look for shoes..
seriously... we found the shoe we want but no our size...
=.=
so walked and walked and denn went to compass.
went to find shoes again but still cannot find!!!
so went to Montique and bought a ring.
mine is a gothic type of ring,
her's is one tt can fit 2 fingers..
dunno wad its called le, hmm boxers wear those too though
ya..
denn bused home..
so tired after walking arnd SO LONG in a pair of HEELS,
my foot got BLISTERS.
OUCH.
hmph.
today must chiong hw le...
=.=
tata

NEW

2010-01-20T18:58:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALPHONSUS TAY!!!!

reply taggies:
angela : YESYES! he very shuai.. haiiz... too bad he dead in the end...

new blogskin.
it looks kinda antique right?
hahahas.
anyway,
today schl was... not as tiring..
i missed PE's 2.4km...
cause i'm kinda sick...mentally.
i mean seriously lahh,
i'm about to cry already he wants me to run 5 rounds arnd the schl??!
ya...
denn in the end really got sick.
cause got stomachache...
and peixin was SO COLD!
seriously, her hands were icy cold!!

tomorrow there's a maths test.
but i spent most of my time playing com.
wads the point? : i thought to myself..
haiiz...
i wont do well anyway..
its always like tt...
i put in lots of effort,
in the end it still didnt came out good.
l8er then revise abit bahh
feel so slack now...
zzzz

juniors are intolerable...
dont know wad the schl will become of...
and tt 2 girls, (Verna Mandy)
changing bad...
like wtf.
why?
sec 4s den u think everything's gonna be fine.
yaya, dream on.
and though its just suspecting...
i seriously cannot believe tt the 2 of them will cheat us!!! (Riduan Azizah)

=.='''

PISSED OFF

2010-01-19T20:22:00.002+08:00

totally pissed off.
by alot of stuffs...
by tt girl, and tt 2 ppl...
wahh...
irritated MUCH!!!
zzzzz

nothing else to say..
just tt i'm super tired and i'm addicted to code geass again...
thank you thank you.

now i'm trying to put in a title for my posts...
start the new trend...
XD

MY BIRTHDAY

2010-01-16T12:21:00.005+08:00

(A BIG THANK YOU TO THE NAMES IN RED!!!)

14 January was my birthday.
at 12am, alphonsus was the first to sms me happy birthday.
denn was hwiecheng mei mei!!
and denn once i reached schl in the morning,
excos sang me a soft birthday song.
cause we doing duty mahhs.
XD
and alicia and yik ming also told me happy birthday.
thank you..

after tt,
went bck to class and saw a note by peiyi.
she says she'll give me my present another day..
so my guess was she haven buy,
so i told her if she haven buy, denn forget it.
i'm not tt hungry for presents anyway.
denn ppl said happy birthday to me.

during recess,
went to 4C.
got so many birthday bashes...
but i bash pearlyn bck!
muahahahahaha.
and siyu gave me a present too!
thank you!!!
angela was very high when i got in..
and she kept talking to me.
i didnt realise anything was wrong until jingrong pushed me aside awkwardly.
so they're still penning their wishes for me.
lol.
the card was very SEXY.
wahh.. thanks arr...
anyway, the necklace they gave me was really classy, it looks like a antique..
and they are angela, jingrong, shuyi, yokeling, jieyi.
denn went to have mee siam.

got bck to class and blah blah...
day goes on...
denn when i'm about to go home,
peixin gave me a present tt she and christine chose for me.
chocolates and lollipops!!
denn saw rachel whispering to vanessa,
i sort of know wads gonna happen so i dash for the door.
but peiyi stopped me at the door.
and the birthday song from the class started..
thank you thank you.
on the bus, flipped out my phone
and saw riduan's sms.
hahas.
thanks dude.

got home and did some hw...
denn went to buy myself a cake.
and denn saw xuying's sms!
thank you!!!
at night, celebrated with my mum and jieyi.
denn only mummy sang me birthday song.
pathetic birthday...
haiiz...
ate the strawberry shortcake i bought for myself..
yea.
pathetic birthday.
my birthdays has always been this pathetic anyway...
zzzz
after tt went bck to do hw..
and denn saw yuxiang's birthday sms to me
hahas.
thx.

denn next day, 15jan.
got bck to class and xinyi gave me a birthday present and card.
she DIY the present.
thank you...
got bck to my seat and saw a present and letter by yanting.
a heartshaped necklace/choker and a small bear bear.
i hang the small bear on my bag.
its cute!
thank you!!
and denn farren and rachel came up to me and gave me a box.
its a cute doggie plushie!!!
ahahahs.
thanks!!!!
and then schl released at 10.20am casue we got band 1.
hahaha
went to council rm, put down things and went to find ms chum.
got her into council room and started chapter 11.1
missed whole of it due to sec 1 camp.
denn accompnaied fwah to find ms low,
she listened to chapter 17 while i do tys.
denn went to lunch with alphonsus and fwah.
waited until felicia came and went bck up to council rm.
started reading newsppr denn did homework.
until felicia started testing alphonsus chinese..
do until 4plus denn went to compass.
denn went home...
reached home and slacked...
denn at night started fixing the present xinyi gave me...
she used scotch tape and glue..
denn the whole thing not stable..
so i fixed it..
now its good as new
XD

*jealous. jealous of everything they have, but i dont. i know its not right, but cant help feeling jealous. i want to be like tt, and then jealousy became hate. damm.

bck to the picture..
Penny Dai Pei Ni.
she's a genius..
i love her songs!!!
yay!!!
hahahaha

REFLECTING

2010-01-12T18:41:00.003+08:00

today got no pics...

hmmm...
sec 4 life has been really tiring up till now..
i've been sleeping at around 12am.
so damm

yesterday got bck o lvl chi results.
i got an A1 but yesterday except for the starting where i was really high,
once i got bck to class,
i cant get high le...
felt terrible cause some of my friends didnt get it.
haiiz...
and now my schl is a band 1 schl,
they will surely push my batch to maintain band 1...
o.0

now drinking blue coral ice blended,
this is the first type of bubble tea tt i drank..
:D

gonna step down from council le..
super sad...
the year in exco has really made me learn and grown alot.
and i've made 7 good friends in exco too.
we, the 7th batch of exco, is VERY VERY united!
unlike the previous batch.
we have gone thru ALOT.
cause once we took over council,
we faced lots of probs with council's attire etc.
we've tried many ways to pull council's discipline bck up and i think we've succeeded.
we have also learnt from our seniors' mistakes, saying things too harshly and hurting others, and we try our very best not to be like them and tts why during sec 1 camp debriefing we tried to edit edit our words so tt they dun sound harsh.
now picked the nxt batch of exco but we still have diff views on some sec 3s.
but its already set so argue also no use le lah..
right now we're planning council tee as our last project as exco.
we also wanna have exco tee!
haha
like gonna spend alot of money...

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL OF 2010

2010-01-04T20:02:00.007+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YANTING!!!!! XD

today is the first day of school of 2010
but dun feel like lehh...
anyway, early in the morning got role call...
quite a failure i think...
denn super busy...
went bck to class at.. 8+??
lol...
denn peiyi saved a seat for me. XD
weng lao shi prep talk us until arnd 8.55..
after t tis maths.
mrs ng prep talk...
after tt was mr seah's lesson..
he went straight into class and we did photo interpretation.
after which was recess...
denn was 3 periods of english.
ms betsy teo also prep talk us..
she's super humourous!!!
denn had bio spa.
ms chum took over though mrs chew was there to keep a look out.
used data loggers to take our heart beats..
my heart beats super weird...
probably because of my coughs...
haha!
denn was lunch, and was chinese.
did summary and prep talk..
went for choir straight away..
until 6.40pm...
reached home at 7.10pm..
wahh..
i'm completely exhausted..

hope tomorrow will be amore relax day...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!

2010-01-01T18:32:00.002+08:00

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HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
i cannot believe its 2010 le!!!
gosh..
time flies...
now i'm officially sec4...
=.=
yesterday morning went to watch AVATAR.
SUPER NICE!!!!
i watched 3D somemore sia!!!
13$.. but who cares.
after tt i lost my white hairband...
>.<
denn went to hougang mall and walk walk..
reached home a few hours l8er and watched tv all the way..
hahahahahaha
hohohohohoho.

today...
stayed at home for the whole day and did cards...
as in for money de...
earned i dunno how much..
hahahas

for the new year...
i want...
1) good health for everyone!
2) world peace!
3) good o lvl results!
4) good teachers!
5) easy o lvl papers!

ok and now for my own thingys
1) ink handbag
2) shoes
3) hairbands
4) clothes
5) cash

done.
my wishlist for 2010!!!
hohohohohohohoho!!!
school's starting le...
errr.... yay??
i'll try my best to be optimistic denn.
XD

SUPER ANGRY LAHH!!!!

2009-12-25T23:22:00.003+08:00

grace is effing pissed.

me bathing at 10pm.

finally at conditioner-ing,

my moronic auntie told me she needa shit.

so i rushed...

denn my mum screamed at me to get out..

so i did, didnt even bothering about wearing my clothes,

i rushed out into the living rm,

and there he was,

the effing cousin,

great, just excellent.

denn i'm so angry,

i pushed the bed out of the rm so tt no one will come knocking on the door to ask for her bed.

denn i need my comb,

so smsed jiajia to get me my comb.

my fingers were trembling hard while i type my sms...

den i started playing songs.

played Bad Romance first,

denn decided to play Fuck You by Lilly Allen.

good choice i feel.

tomorrow better be a good day.

i'm so pissed off right now.

2009-12-25T15:39:00.002+08:00

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yeehang: MERRY CHRISTMAS~~~~~~~~

3A outing on 23/12/09.
went to rent bic at pasir ris park and saw this in the store.
so we started our nonsense. :D
i only remembered some...
hahaha

(C) Chinese - $2
(A) Adults - $4
(M) Malay - $5
(S) Singapore - $5
(D) Douglas - $7
(DS) Douglas Small - $8

its suppose to be for bics lahh....
we siao liao....
hahaahahahs.

anyway, on tt day,
morning went to schl for sec 1 registration.
saw some potantial problematic sec 1s nxt yr...
ms pey and us(exocs) sighed like hell...
HAHAHA
trouble is confirmed for nxt yr's orientation camp denn...
=.=
and i heard a funny story from leona...
its time for the other councillors to go home,
only excos are staying bck to do the remaining duties..
denn liyun and leona were on the phone,
liyun told leona to tell the councillors in the council rm to leave in 5 secs,
but it seems tt no one bothered alot...
>.<
denn i told liyun i'll be going up to council rm to rush them out.
and it seems tt when leona told the other councillors i'm, going up,
everyone rushed out..
=.=
errr....
am i suppose to happy??
guess so???
LOLL
i felt funny only... xD

denn after duty,
rushed home and bathed...
denn dried my hair and rushed to cp
at cp,
zongsheng lied to me... >.<
he said everyone waited for me only...
denn i was so pai sehh i ran to find them lehh..
but in the end, he called the others who were later than me and told them the same thing.....
zzzzzzzzzz
so we went to take bus 89 and reached down town east,
walked to area 3...
super long walk..
=.=
rent a bic with peiyi...
double bic..
cycle cycle...
denn at the last 40 mins...?
we went to the basketball court there and found all the boys and fwah..
cause fwah double bic with yeehang...
hahahahaha
denn went to buy drinks and snacks with peiyi and fwah.
and finally started to teach fwah and peiyi how to cycle a single bic.
fwah is GOOD.
she picked up fast but peiyi.... she's too afraid..
hahaha
super funny!
denn went to return bic..
and slacked around..
suddenly peiyi said she going home..and there she goes..
after tt started mass game...
after a few rounds of handiplast,
fwah went home cause she gt curfew.. >.<
continued to play murderer and virus..
after the first round of virus,
chinyee, jaslyn, jodi, wanying, xinyi went home.
so left zs, tengda, kaibin, yeehang, kokting, douglas, mich, yanting, jialin, shuxian, chinbee and me.
we continued to play virus until finally 10plus pm denn went to white sands for dinner... at mac.
but b4 tt we sent yanting and douglas to 89 bus stop...
tengda sprinted like hell to help them find the bus stop...
across roads somemore...
pro runner... xD
denn after dinner, which is arnd 11+pm,
we went home,
took bus 88 with jialin, shuxian, tengda, kaibin and yeehang.
reached home at exactly 11.45pm.
slept at 1+pm..
super tired...

denn the nxt day, christmas eve,
went to schl at 9am and did script for presentation nxt yr about the cruise..
went home and slept for awhile cause i'm tired..
denn read Breaking Dawn...
finished the part of jacob's thoughts...
now reached bella lunged at jacob cause he imprinted on her daughter..
so funny.

today is CHRISTMAS!
but i dun feel excited about today...
only feel excited about tomorrow, and abit more for sunday..
cause tomorrow going to jieyi's church party and sunday going siying's house for potluck x'mas celebration...
hohohoho

i haven finish my hw..
feeling scared for chem and physics nxt yr...
damm....
>.<

2009-12-21T14:59:00.002+08:00

me and jaslin. xD
its the choir performance, 16dec
we were sitting at the amphi theatre there...

now my life is really nothing much...
but i realised i've too many things going on....
tmr going to schl,
wed gt duty and performance and evening going to celebrate yuxiang's b'dae
thurs going to schl again to do ppt for nxt yr's presentation,
fri... i dunno... but its x'mas so my mum shld be draggin me some where...
sat, meeting up with jas, prancer, jingren
sunday, think i'll be doing my hw...
nxt mon, council meeting...
tues, choir and exco outing...
wed, guess i'll be doing hw...
thurs, homework...
fri, fret over schl...
sat, getting all worked up,
sun, stressed....
monday, cry??
tues, homework,
wed, homework....
thurs, watch tv to celebrate 2010.
fri, stress......
sat, stress even more...
sun, nervous nervous....
monday, my fun filled live live is gone for a year.... =.=

can even predict my life for the next 2 weeks....
zzzzzzz
its so crap lahh....
GAH.
dunno already lahh....
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wadeva.....
dun feel like going out le....
sian......

2009-12-17T16:18:00.003+08:00

reply taggies:
jasmon: lol... i noe u changed URL but dunno wad it is.. so didnt link. xD

really miss the old days.
not tt i'm very old,
just tt really miss 6honesty..
they're like my safe habour,
especially siying hwiecheng david yuxiang jasmon.
haiiz...
now sec schl is like... crap.
how many TRUE friends can u find?
not many...
thinkin back, there's been so many betrayal...
the one tt hurts most is pris case.
i treated her like my best friend.
told her everything.
but in the end, i dun even noe wad happen and tts why it hurts the most.
and when u think excos are the most bonded team,
not exactly so..
because we get to noe each other more and more,
we realise each other's bad points more...
i miss 6honesty.
its the BEST class i've ever been in...
i remembered siying and jingren once told me tt they dun really like me but they're ok with being friends with me...
and i was ok with tt.
because i'm sastisfied with being friends with them
and now we're VERY good friends, at least tts how i feel :D
though we seldom chat..
hahas
and now i miss my pri schl teachers...
feel so damn...

not sure whether i wanna grow up now...
wanna stay little....
stay at pri schl...
with all my friends...
with no betrayal...
with naive thihnking..
with lots of forgiveness...

anyway,
all this thoughts came from yesterday choir...
during the performance esplanade and after tt,
i felt sad... cause i'm about to leave choir.
i admit i hated this choir last year.
now, i'm really in love with it,
but i felt ok.
i felt neutral to it...
and now tt i'm about to leave it, i felt... tt if i could, i still wanna perform as NC chorale.
i wann to go bck to sec one and find bck the love and passion for choir i had back then
its impossible..
speaking of performance last night,
it felt great.
SUPERB.
still feel like performing even though it ended...
hahas. tts the singer inside of me..

btw,
i'm totally stressed out about sec 4 life even though i haven even started it.
and i'm fearing o lvl even though i'm kinda a year to it...
and i'm afraid to move on...
afraid tt things will change even more than it had...
though its really ironic...
cause CHANGE is the only CONSTANT in life isnt it..
x.x
wished tt i could have more time to appreciate my life...
now got to rush thru my life with the mountain of homework...
>.<

2009-12-15T15:59:00.002+08:00

came back from the cruise on 12dec.
nvr post on tt day cause kinda seasick...
hahahaha
anyway lets start and i'll see wad i can remember...

Day 1
met all the nan chiau's ppl at hougang mrt except farren.
denn we took mrt to harbour front and walked to the cruise section there.
lingered for arnd one hour!
denn splited into our groups.
i'm in taurus.
my facilitator is a girl...
i thought its a guy cause everytime is a guy call me..
lols.
anyway, her nme is Yin Yue...
sounds like music horr..
lol
denn...
I DUNNO ANYONE LAHH!!!!
i'm so quiet can..
so abnormal..
hahahaha
after we handed in our passports,
gotten our events tee,
finally we get to get on the cruise.
my group went first cause we're nearer to the reception.
we went to Galaxy Of Stars(lounge) first for the opening ceremony,
but in the end, we got sent bck to our cabins to put our stuffs and get changed into one event tee first. its pink btw.
denn my roommate is Zui Yi.
haha
denn went bck to the lounge and opening ceremony.
boring...
after the ceremony,
got buffet.
denn gt a talk by Lee Xin Shang, a professional photographer.
he super funny.
loved his talk and his job!
xD
denn got a fire drill.
quite boring...
but its important.
the cruise is called Star Libra..
after tt is dnner at ocean palace.
the food ok lahh,
though some says it sucks..
after dinner, my grp went to discuss our performance for captain's night.
not a success...
denn is supper,
so we went up to deck 9,
and denn deck 10(the highest deck)
the sea wind is super HUGE!
felt like i'm gonna get blown away...
haha
after blowing wind,
went bck to cabin, bathed and blow dried my hair...
finally went to bed at 1+am. but only fell asleep at 3+am..
zzz

Day 2
woke up at 5+am cause my roommate's alarm rang!
its so damm loud..
kinda irritated cause its so inconsiderate.
>.<
denn cant sleep le..
so went to watch sun rise.
its so dumb lahh
sun dun rise until 6+-7am.
i also dunno why i didnt tell her...
finally she gave up and we went bck to cabin to change for morning PT.
morning excercise is useless.
no streching or anything...
zzzz
denn went for breakfast at deck 9...
after tt we reached Ba Sen, a place of malaysia...
went to a school named Guang Hua Du Xiao, independent schl.
super waste my time.
the director of tt schl gives his speech,
and its like a campaign for elections.
siao.
denn the principal describe the schl..
as if we'd wanna noe.
singapore schls are so mauch better.
and he's so proud about the schl got teach english,
and says tt their chinese are very strong..
=.=
singapore's english is so much more chim than theirs,
our chinese is also so much better.
xiao wu jian da wu..
denn went to a chocolate shop near the twins tower.
the chocloates there are...
=.=
singapore gt so much more varities.
haiiz..
only bought 3 cheap boxs of chocolates..
denn went bck to cruise..
denn dinner at Four Seasons.
after tt discussed performance again...
denn i think i went to bed after bathing...
this time is dropped into slumber quite fast cause i'm tired...
hahahaha

Day 3
woke up at arnd 6am.
had breakfast at ocean palace.
its nice~~~
after tt went to penang.
had a small exchange programm with their students reporters.
after tt went to a shop tt sells local products.
nothing much lahh..
everything singapore also got sell.
i dun see the reason for me to buy alot.
so bought bing for mummy, yifong yiyi and uncle.
denn went to somewhere near the sea..
took photos...
finally got bck to cruise at 2+pm.
denn on the cruise,
changed into shorts and watched a magic show by charles bach.
so interesting!!!
took photo with his beautiful wife,
his wife super cute,
when i went to ask her to take a pic with me,
she was jumping up and down!
lol
after tt went to take a pic with him..
denn played intergroups games.
SO FUN!!!!
my group is so damm super funny
xD
after the games,
went for a debrief at the pool deck and denn its dinner..
went to Four seasons for dinner and right after dinner,
went bck to my rm to change into my glam wear.
felt so pai sehh cause i wearing a dress..
denn went to a disco room.
had some games and jiale and hailong are SUPERB!!!
hahahas
denn time to perform.
sang sang sang,
denn after another round of games,
we danced...
its so super funny cause we anyhow danced Nobody and Gee...
its suppose to be like tt de.
cause we act like we going for audition,
denn very bad,
so gt magician, Darren, came out to perform a little magic for us
xD
denn continued to dance..
xD
so FUN~~~
after tt went to find nan chiau ppl again.
denn me and jaslyn wore glam wear while the others changed le..
lol
denn we went to deck 5, at the front of the ship and started singing songs..
and watching stars...
denn acted abit titanic..
finally, we went to jingrong's rm to chat.
i changed le lahh, of course..
after tt, i went to jiale's room and found everyone... well almost everyone from my group
we talked,
and i was made to tell my most appealing 3 guys and girls.
guys - jiale (looks like my cousin, ah boy)
- darren (looks like my cousin also, ah ping)
- hailong (looks like 20+, i thought he's a facilitator)
- su peng (the lost boy on the first boy)

girls - qiaoling (looks like ah moh, cause too pretty le)
- priscillia lye (looks like xin rui)
- lim xin yi (looks like jeannie)
- zui yi (she sounds like jing yi)

denn when i say the guys horr,
when i say until darren, they all says i came here to find my lost family...
denn they say hailong is my dad and wingleung is my mum..
=.=
and denn when i say the girls..
they say i'm there to find my friends...
lol!!!
after tt we went to disturb bennett and fang xing!!
LOL!!!
denn tired le so went to bed...

Day 4
woke up at 8am.
denn went for breakfast at Four Seasons
denn had a closing ceremony.
watched photos of us..
taken by the photographers of the facilitators.
denn watched a vid... of us also lahh
hahaha
denn prize giving.
Taurus got 优异组奖 and best cheer!!
denn jiale got best male camper!
gong xi gong xi!
after tt went to pool deck for photo taking again.
denn bennett jumped into the pool to swim.
denn jiale and wing leung fooled arnd.
finally we left the pool deck and went bck to cabins to pick up luggages and went to Galaxy Of The Stars.
amanda tang helped me collect my passport.
xD
denn took grp photos...
and denn started writing on pieces of red papers about every group members.
and its time to leave the ship.
got off the ship and got into harbour front an hour later..
=.=
denn took mrt with pei xin,
reached hougang and got off.
walked to buy double chocolate cafe and took 72.
homed and started doing schedule thing for sec 1 orientation..
i haven even bathed!
lol
anyway,
after tt, slept at 3+am...

sunday completely slacked at home...
monday(yesterday), went for choir from 10am to 5+pm..
tiring..
denn today,
went to cp and gave some bing to angela.
denn went to buy special k cereals.
hahahas
xD

2009-12-09T12:26:00.003+08:00

reply taggies:
Riduan: LOLL. got difference... i'm TALLER. hahahas.

this is when i'm sec 1....
if i'm not wrong lahh...
hahahas
looks weird...
anyway,
going on the cruise later...
at 2+pm.
xD
i'll be back on 12dec...
see if i'll blog about it...
confirm have a lot of things de lehh...
zzzz.....
:D

2009-12-08T20:32:00.003+08:00

reply taggies:
Beatrice W: LOLL... i'm going overseas tomorrow until 12dec... u guys have to jiayouus le!! :D
seeya on 14dec. xD

this is my FIRST zi-lian pic.
taken when i was... p5.
lols.
going to be sec 4 nxt yr le...
now looking bck into the past...
haiiz...
it was always very easy in the pri schl days.
now its super stress...
even more stress than PSLE since i wasnt even stressed out during PSLE.
-.-

anyways,
had been reading twilight saga.
now at new moon bk.
watching twilight the movie anyway,
its not realy nice lahh..
cause its like rushng thru the whole bk...
and there knida no link... unless u've read the bk.
and robert pattinson is not very handsome, nor hot....
kristen steward looks pretty though..
she fits bella... except she's not as clumsy as bella...

tomorrow going for the ZB comma cultural cruise.
packed lots of stuffs...
its a 4day 3night cruise.
hope it'll fun... really hoping...
well, at least this is kind of an atonement for me tt i wasnt able to go china and japan this year...

gtg play now...
xD

2009-12-07T23:30:00.005+08:00

reply taggies:
Chi Ling: welcome!!
JASmine: actually is the book nice, the movie is....average lahh... :D

candle!!!!
reminds me of a choir song - CANDLE ON THE WATER
its super nice,
too bad we cant sing it very well yet.
anyway,today nothing much.
didnt go for choir cause morning felt sick.
and charmaine told me choir practice went bad...
denn afternoon, arnd 2+pm went to cp to find angela.
returned her the Twilight book she lent me.
and she lent me New Moon this time.
after we chat chat,
we walked arnd cold storage, guardian and watson to find her ORGANIC vingar...
very picky...
tsktsktsk.
denn went home and bathed.
denn looked at my book review and gave up hope... but still needa complete.
zzzz
after tt crashed arnd the whole house looking for my clothes.
started packing for the cruise on wed.
tomorrow gonna buy some cosmetics, fix my heels, and change money.

now lets talk twilight.
edward cullen.
he seems to be really handsome in the BOOK.
isabella (bella) swan.
she's pretty in the book and movie. xD
i realised the story is set in the present,
i was shocked.
hahahaha
thought it would be some time during the victoria times...
lol

now i'm so bored...
so tired of homework.
have a major urge to bash up the teachers that gave homework without specifying wad he/she wants. especially for english.
movie and book review need wad? summary and thoughts. need fav character? never state.
also didnt state the word limit for all the homework.
now my country project got 11 pages!
=.=
the next yr teacher betta dun scold me....
zzzzzz....

2009-12-03T22:21:00.002+08:00

reply taggies:
Chi Ling: Linked!!! :D
Shuyi: Hahaha!!! ya... u FINALLY tagged. have a happy and safe journey to taiwan~~ xD

pic taken from google.
tomorrow gonna watch this with jingrong and angela...
doing my movie review on this movie also...
hmmm.....

now i'm memorising Shin JiRu for choir...
just finished learning Seal Lullaby...
haiiz....
though i loike the song Shin JiRu,
there's too many words le...
><
will jiayouus....
hahahahahahahahahaha!

2009-12-02T23:24:00.002+08:00

reply taggies:
Beatrice W: hahas. today i went for sports leader stuff. xD my blog seldom gt ppl tag, though i noe they come to read... like this girl in the photo... -.- hahahahahahaha

ladies and gentlemen.
this is cheong shuyi from above,
hahahaha
posted her pic cause today i went to her house from 2+pm all the way till 9+pm.
had lunch and dinner at her house.
and ice cream, and chips, and jelly, and cherry.
hahahahaha
went for sports leader thing in the morning from 10am to 12.30pm.
on my way to schl saw jazin btw.
thought up some dance steps for Jai Ho(a song).
very little.
anyway, its fun. :D
after tt, went to bookshop with liyun and jieyi(lye),
denn jieyi went home from main gate.
me and liyun walked to side gate to wait for bus 372 to go compass,
cause its raining....
den we missed the bus,
we just walked to the basketball court and saw the bus driving away...
crap.
denn stood there, at the bus stop and chat.
its a wonder how girls can always find things to talk about!
hahahaha
got on the bus awhile l8er and continued chatting...
denn reached cp and liyun says she wanna buy a cup of bubble tea,
just den, she saw her bus,
she didnt want to run for it and wanted to go buy bubble tea first...
but missy here pushed her and she got on the bus!
HOHOHOHOHO
denn took mrt to serangoon, and i missed the train.
i stepped onto the escalator and saw my train closing the doors and byebye.
so sat at thye chairs,
read a book for the 4th time, (IT SUPER NICE!)
denn mrt came
got off at serangoon,
walked out and was heading to interchange until i pass by a busstop.
shuyi says to take 315 or 317.
and tt bus stop gt 317.
but its the last 2nd stop le..
so jaywalked across the road and to the opp. bus stop.
waited for awhile and bus came.
took until chomp chomp...
didnt even realised until some guy pressed the bell and i saw the word CHOMP CHOMP just as the bus was about to stop.
so i got off and smsed angela.
waited for awhile and shuyi and jingrong came to fetch me. xD
went to shuyi's house and had lunch.
denn we did e maths hw,
though i think i kinda just copied it all...
=.=
we were watchin My Girlfriend Is An Agent as we're doing hw...
hahahaha
after we finished, jingrong went home...
denn we started to chat...
and finally decided to play monopoly...
play play play....
denn its dinner time!
fried rice, just like lunch...
after tt,
went bck to rm for more monopoly...
at 9pm,
me, angela and jieyi(foo) went off despite shuyi's pleadings for us to wait for her dad to drive us home......
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
took bus 317 to serangoon station,
was walkin to mrt until i saw bus 147 pass by,
decided to take it so bid gdbye to angela and jieyi and walked off...
i walked like super long until i found the bus stop tt 147 will pass by.
sat down for awhile,
denn mum called and repeated her questions and her concerns super many times..
denn hung up and went to buy TeenAge magazine.
paid the money and just nice, the bus came.
got on the bus and realised i not sure if its going the way to my home...
=.=
went to ask the bus driver,
he sucks kkaes,
he like super buay song i asking him questions larhh!
heck.
sat down and flipped thru the mag when i know its going the right way,
reached home finally at 9.55pm!!!!
not even 10 can!!!
hahahahahaha
denn sat down to rest abit and bathed at 11pm...
now my hair still kinda wet...
but its ok!~~~~
hahahaha

i wanna watch Alvin and the Chipmunks 2,
i wanna read Twilight series....
i wanna finish my homework....
crap.

2009-12-01T00:06:00.002+08:00

reply taggies:
Beatrice W: thanks... sorry for all the vulgarities!!! hahahahaha abut u didnt come for choir lehh.... aiyo....

hahahahas.

obsessed!!!!

just now went to try out a few of my dresses...

they were all in the cupboard collecting dust..

and i totally forgt i had all those dresses larh!!!

LOLL

denn cause choir performance nearing,

so went to try my blue gown.

as usual, its super big.

haiiz...

needa use safety pin again.

and i realised i really like wearing gowns..

its feels..... i dunno.... elegant??

hahahaha

anyway,

my phone was beside me on the bed,

so just snatched it up and took a couple of pictures...

(though i said a couple, i think i took arnd 10...)

today was tiring...

super uper tiring...

in the morning, i was suppose to wake up at 8.50am to prepare.

cause needa reach schl for com meeting at 10am for choir.

but in the end,

who knows?

missy here actually slept all the way till arnd 10..

=.=

denn sms-ed leona,

and wanted to rush....

but again,

i fell bck to sleep..

=.='''

denn finally woke up at arnd 9.40am...

do here do there,

reached schl at 10.40!!!!

LOLL

late.... completely late...

and i didnt even pinned up my hair!

oh man!!!

after i reached,

shuwei breief me on the meeting just now...

denn did feedback form.

raina and nina too funny...

after tt,

sang thru I heard the bells, on x'mas day, joy to the world, jingle bells.

aiya...

for me its easy cause learnt them during sec1...

so went along and hope tt the others will know how to sing...

denn at 12.30pm.

rushed to compass to buy lunch.

wanted to eat subway...

but in the end settled for Mac cause i gt the coupon haven use.

so gt a McChicken ($2) and a coke ($1), and small fries (coupon).

$3!!!! cheap lunch!

hahahahaha

denn went bck to schl.

ate for 15 mins ONLY!

denn ran up to music rm and continued practicing until ms yin came.

denn cause wenxuan requested to sing jingle bell rock,

ms yin taught us!!

woohooo!!!

only 2 parts now...

sop 2 no need to sing the lame mono-tone part le xD

den revised all the songs (almost all)

finally its 5pm.

gave out shoes to sec1s...

denn went to main gate and waited for runan,

when she smsed me tt she alighted 163,

i walked to her house void deck..

denn continued walkin cause very sian..

in the end she cannot find me!!!

hahahahahaha

she gave me the packing list etc for the cruise thingy...

denn bused home...

nothing much lahh...

needa do homework!!!!!

gragra!

i'm feeling KINDA better..... i THINK.

haiiz....

still abit insane.

and cried about P.S I LOVE YOU again...

its just so sad....

grabra!!!

hahahaha

i'm coming up with new weird words!

woooohhhooooo~~~~~

thank you thank you!

goin to sleep le..

dun wan to be late for tmr's sports leaders meeting at 10am

hahaha

2009-11-28T20:41:00.005+08:00

shit.
i'm crying the shit out
i dunno why,
i just feel like crying.
cant stop.
it feels so good to be crying.
what is wrong with me.
suddenly wanna see my father...
why must he die...

fyi,
this post gonna be a whole chunk of vulgars.
cause missy here is super unhappy.

my mum is always like tt de.
since young she has been breaking her promises.
she says she'll bring me to Si Ma Lu to baibai.
but dun have,
she say she'll bring me for a haircut.
but dun have.
she says she'll bring me to courts to look for camera.
but dun have,
she says she'll bring me to hougang point to walk walk.
but dun have.
instead, all these times she was either with her lover or rebonding her hair.
wad am i to her?
nothing.
i'm just someone tts so dumb can always be fooled and cheated and nvr get sad?

and why are THEY still in my house.
how old is she le?
she stayed here since i'm borned, no, shld be way b4 i'm born.
so its like 20 over yrs.
and she dun feel shameless keep on living here.
shameless.
now the whole family came to live here.
wad. my house is a hotel.
fuck.
so old already, 24? 28?
still no bf, income only 1000+.
worse still, a Uni graduate.
wad does this shows.
useless.
dumb.
idiots.
morons.
denn?
i cannot look down on them?
why not?
stay at my house as if its theirs.
still no respect for my mum and me and my sis.
and so dumb.
no reason for me to look up to them

my uncle.
he's the worst kind of man one could ever meet.
cheated my mum all her money.
now has no money to pay bck.
tts why my family is having a hard time living.
and he dun even feel a single damm shitty sorry 'bout it.
still dare send his son to my house for studies.
stay here how long?
another 10 yrs?
20 yrs?
c'b.
when my mum gt a little bit of extra cash,
he called and acted nice and still gt face to borrow more money
den when my mum is short of cash.
he's always damm sian to listen to my mum's call.
asshole.
bo lan jiao.

my grandma.
she's the worst.
cant wait to attend her funeral.
she aided in the cheating of my mum's money.
denn now act like she did nothing wrong.
when my mum called to find my uncle for money,
she super buay song.
for wad?
hate her.
understand?
H. A. T. E
damm her.
tts why i so super love my grandPA.

i super unlucky to have these relatives.
i'm serious.
i dun even give a damm about them reading this post.
so wad.
come scold me lahh.
among the whole family,
MY FAMILY SUFFERS THE MOST AND ITS ALL BECAUSE OF THEM!
SO WHY CANT I SCOLD THE FUCKING DAMM HELL OUT OF THESE STUPID MORONS?!

2009-11-26T19:25:00.002+08:00

reply taggies:
angela: did i miss myself? i wont lahh. see myself everyday in the mirror.. LOL
chinbee: linked :D

bck from council camp yesterday.

Day 1
excited.
shall not go into the details cause i've kinda forgot le...
ice-breaking games,
FUN.
my grp super high.
laugh until stomachache....
hahahas
lunch was prata...
amazing race.
it was really fast and like no one really noe the purpose for it.
water games....
paisehh....
didnt finish the game and went on to free and easy.
denn gt loads of extra time left.
crap.
dinner was lee wee.....
gt hide and seek.
its like kinda fast.
denn at night councillors watch night in the museum 2.
anyway,
got trashed down by seniors.
they good.
everything's our fault.
they're seniors so we didnt talk bck to them
but seriously,
which batch of excos is more disciplined and all?
i think its my batch.
reasons?
easy.
we all do our duties.
but the previous batch?
take leroy,
he nvr does patrolling,
its always lynn.
last tim when i was still an understudy,
i caught him at thge 4th floor chattin happily with yeeteng and wanching.
wow.
they're doing a great job.
and i remembered him scolding me "i talking here cannot mehh?"
ha.ha.
denn lehh?
the camp is a lousy one?
all our fault?
the councillors who came this year and last year felt tt this yr's camp is way better than last yr's.
so much for our camp is poorly planned and all.
and its nt like its all our fault right?
scold us until so harsh.
and they scolded felicia, liyun and me first.
lol much?
the 3 of us NEVER gone thru any training to plan camps for anything.
at least the others did plan the sec 1 orientation b4.
and they scold us.
and ya, i noe they're not there to trash our camp, they're there to make us feel demoralised and crushed.
well, they've kinda done it.
well done again.

Day2
better than day one.
in-line skating in the morning...
can skate abit lahh...
but need to focus alot..
denn lunch, lee wee again.
after tt captain's ball.
hahas.
fun but tiring..
after tt cooking competition.
each grp only gt $12 to spend on ingredients.
went to compass to buy pasta for dinner- excos' dinner.
went bck to schl and started cooking..
desmond, the chef, cooked for the excos.
hahahaha
it looks really nice and its tasty.
thank you.
after dinner,
played night walk.
denn some councillors went for supper and really angered shuyi.
for the first time,
i saw shuyi really angry.
though she's still quite comical...
denn the councillors went to sleep.

Day 3
bathed at 1+am.
denn went to home ec rm for supper until 3+am.
when we came out of the rm,
fwah and i saw....... ahem.
went bck to hall and slept until 5am.
denn did night patrol with riduan and halfway i slept.
left riduan talking to himself.
and he saw........ahem.
he's really scared and i'm sorry cause i fell asleep...
denn woke up at arnd 6.30am, saw riduan sleepin...
so didnt wake him up.
sat at the stage on my own.
walked 2-3 rounds arnd the hall cause i'm cold..
i didnt noe about the... ahem thing tt riduan saw yet,
so i dared to night patrol alone..
dnen near 7am,
woke riduan up and i went to switch on the lights at 7am.
woke all councillors up, including exocs, and went to wash up.
physical training,
did a little but didnt run with them..
helped shuyi with the food..
scared l8er she angry again..
after tt ate and ahd meeting with excos about the 15understudies.
the councillors were all listening to a talk.
settled and denn went for debrief.
very short debrief by alphonsus cause apparently he dunno wad to say..
hahaha
after tt prize presentation.
and followed by gift exchange,
i gt a precious-moments keychain from affrah.
denn announced the 15 understudies.
and break camp
the 15 sec 2s help to pack the blazers, just bck from laundry.
denn brief them on their duties for sec1 orientation.
after tt chatted abit and went to cp for lunch.
denn reached home and slept immediately.
slept from 3+pm to 5+pm.
woke up.
sat on my bed.
denn almost immediately,
i dropped bck down onto the bed and slept....
this time is from 5+pm to 8+pm.
woke up cause mum called me for dinner.
ate and bathed...
denn 11+pm went to sleep....
all the way until today 1+pm.
i'm like a pig...
:D

2009-11-22T15:09:00.003+08:00

tada~~~~~
my lovely xps cum choir seniors!
from the left: jaslin chua, mandy ong, goh huiru.
this was taken during prom night by i think jaslin.
hahaha
chiobus~~~
anyway,
speaking of prom night,
excos went there for duty...
5 of us, liyun, felicia, shuyi, azizah and me, met on thurs.
we wrapped the prizes for the lucky draw...
all the things damm expensive lurh!!
gt cam recorder, printer, digital photoframe, ipod shuffle etc.
walao.
some sponsered by teachers and principals,
some is mdm teo went to courts to buy de..
LOLL
denn on the actual prom day, friday 20/11/09,
went to schl early in the morning for choir sectionals first.
denn went to council rm and saw riduan sleeping...
didn wake him up so i went to toilet, find my tie and play psp...
denn suddenly riduan woke up and he tio cua.
cause i suddenly appear...
HAHAHAHA
denn we helped mdm teo packed the cds for sec4s...
and denn riduan went to change and get his txtbks and stuffs.
denn we waited for the others.
suddenly,
felicia sms me say liyun angry.
so i called feli and she said cause i didnt tell liyun me, riduan and alpho nt meetin up for lunch with them, so liyun waited for 40 mins for us..
so sorry..
den i sms liyun lots of sorry.
hahaha
denn she ok le.
after everyone reached council rm,
we went to foyer to board the schl bus.
brought along all the prizes..
xD
on the bus,
i forgt wad crap we talked abt...
but damm funny lahh.
hahahaha
finally, we reached the s'pore flyer.
we went to the event rm and started decorating...
the most difficult part is the putting up of the stupid banner.
used up so much time.
and while riduan and alpho stood on the ladder to hang the banner,
they look like gays.
not tt i have any problems with gays lah,
just tt the view was super funny.
ms pey took lots of pictures.
hahahaha
denn balloons came!!!
they're so pretty...
after much discussions,
we decided to tie 3 balloons to each table number.
2grey 1yellow for the odd numbers, 2yellow 1grey for the even numbers.
denn the rest of the balloons we tie into a rainbow and put in front of the stage.
den the prom night started and i gave out alumni forms...
denn went to eat. the food damm nice lurh!!!
after tt, slacked and played..
hahahaha
denn went home at 9+pm...
reached home at arnd 11pm...
sian...
damm tired..

nxt day.
woke up at 9+am in the moring,
after washing up and all,
went out with mum.
we going the legal place..
den to fill up the public trustee application.
no choice, i'm poor.
denn went to mummy's shop for lunch.
its called Cafe Le Chateau.
she opened it with 2 other guys, one of them is her lover.
hahaha
nt bad lahh...
i mean the food and the place.
denn after we ate,
went to ikea to buy a drawing which costs $99.
siao.
denn jiajia called.
she said she just returned from camp,
and she didnt bring her house keys so she's stuck outside.
apparently she banged the door and called home already.
denn mummy called rena's hp to see where she is,
in the end, she's at home!
denn mummy fared up.
scolded her.
denn jiajia finally gt to go home.
hahaha
denn me and mummy went to hougang to deposit money into her bank acc.
cause she wanna go add fuel for the car and her bank card can get more discount.
and its a surprise!
cause her bank only left 1 pathetic dollar,
so yea, now u can see how poor i actually am.
denn went to add fuel.... and went home.
i wanted to sleep lehh...
but i forgt wad i was doin lahh, its some crap stuffs.
i think i was playing com...
denn at night watch AI and sheng shiong show.
denn played com again and slept.

today
felicia ki siao.
early in the morning 3+am sms,
she is so high about council camp.
denn shuyi called,
she says we no need go buy the food together cause her mum says watse our time, not hers lahh.
denn anything lorr.
after i woke up, washed up..
alphonsus called.
he's at the ntuc and he asking me wad he shld buy.
so he bought bread, syrup and soft drinks.
i went to the grocery shop near my house and bought 4 packets of sugar,
2kg each,
and 8 packets of milo, 1kg each.
i went to the grocery shop twice to buy these stuffs cause too heavy le..
so tomorrow i'll be carrying at least 16kg of stuffs...
i wonder how i'll do tt..
need my mum's help le...
hahahaha
gonna enjoy council camp!
woohooo~~~

2009-11-16T21:01:00.002+08:00

yuki, the new dog of my cousins.

today 2C outing.

super tired now.

woke up early in the morning to go ang mo buy food.

bought 2 chips more.

after tt came home and bathed

denn i cooked cambell soup,

drank about 1/4 and left home.

rushed to compass to meet peiyi.

returned the 5 abby cooper books to the library,

i totally cannot bear to part with the book!!!!

hahahahaha.

den went to cold storage and peiyi bought chips while i bought coke zero.

denn i went to mac and took salt for my coke.

hahahaha

denn went to first floor and saw shuyi.

waited for others and went off to plaza sing for movie.

watched My Girlfriend Is An Agent.

so funny larhh!!!!

hahahaha

after the movie,

went to vivo for 'picnic',

played a little game and i guessed my word.

its a game whereby we all have a word tt we are bann from saying,

but we duno the word lahh

however, i guessed my word!!!

hahas.

and becausde i wanna see angela and shuyi's word,

i said mine and took a look.

so funny.

after tt played water.

crap.

i was wearing white~!!!

my shirt became translucent after farren, pearlyn and cass splashed me all over.

hahahahahaha.

denn borrowed jingrong's jacket.

all the others went home straight,

but me, peiyi, avis and yanting stayed for awhile,

denn we parted,

me and peiyi went to daiso explore denn went to compass.

she bought bread denn we seperated.

i went to hougang point and bought roti prata!

its my dinner...

came home,

immediately bathed and ate.

denn came to blog...

hohohohohoho.

its a pity not alot of 2C-ians came....

=.=

tomorrow gonna rest the whole day

2009-11-15T21:35:00.002+08:00

heheh.

nice idea horr?

anyway,

i practically wasted my whole day today.

in the morning played facebook....

and i was just sitting in front of the com

watchin virtual ppl moving arnd without me moving the mouse.

heck.

denn after tt started readin P.S I LOVE YOU.

i cried for every new CHAPTER!

crap.

i'm such a crybaby.

read a few chapters denn cannt continue,

cause heart break le.

so change of book, read abby copper instead.

after tt mum came home from indonesia,

her teeth gt prob liao...

its horrible,

need 2 more weeks b4 they'll look good.

wadeva.

denn wanna go out for dinner,

so went to bath.

but once i open up my cupboard,

its empty.

I HAVE NO CLOTHES TO WEAR!

so crap.

i'm so mad i went to rummaging my cousin's wardrobe.

and wad did ya noe,

ALL of my clothes are there.

seriously.

these ppl dun grow any eyes do they?

my shirts are obviously smaller than theirs,

cannot differentiate?

heck.

screw them!

after i bath,

i wanna go hougang point eat roti prata.

but my aunt wanna go kopitiam eat chicken.

so my mum follow her and since i follow my mum,

(my mum's the one who's gonna pay for my dinner),

i followed them lorr.

den tt place is horrible.

so oily!

and MOI just bathed!

crap!

my hair~!!!!!

denn in the end,

they bought the chicken for themselves!

and i resorted to mee siam while my sis shared a pathetic bowl of porridge.

heck.

i'm even madder by now.

denn came home and asked my mum to consider collecting rental from my aunt.

she's been living for like.... a month?

FOC? like hell i'm gonna let tt happen.

if she lives here foc,

my mum's gonna complain about the living expenses to MOI

while it shld be practical to just get money from my aunt.

i nvr liked tt family.

they're ridiculous.

tomorrow's 2C outing.

its potluck, we buy something and share with others.

hope it'll be fun.

and not like the horrible bbq we had last yr.

hope tt SA wont appear,

if she does, i'll consider dropping out halfway.

2009-11-11T20:38:00.003+08:00

drawn by qiaopo on my table.
havent been bloggin for very long le.
lets talk about recent stuffs.

o lvl chinese on 10/11/09
ppr 1 was easy....
but ppr 2 was...crap, its all about IN YOUR OWN WORDS
sian...

denn bio SPA today was.....shitty.
cause i kinda didnt follow the instructions...
cannot elaborate so... too bad lah.

after bio SPA today went for body worlds.
at first its kinda scary cause the exhibits there are all REAL HUMAN BODIES.
interesting, wonderful, fantastic, magnificent!!!
learnt alot!
cannot take pics cause must be respectful to those who were once alive.

after the exhibition,
went to compass for dinner with peiyi.
we had subway and denn came home.
tomorrow got open house and needa reach at 7.15am for council duties....
tiring~

going for cruise on december 9-12
its for a chinese learning thing organised by ZAOBAO.
gonna have fun!!!!

2009-11-07T19:17:00.004+08:00

i had a haircut
fringe!~~~
put up pic tomorrow bahh

in the morning 9+am,
went to schl for arnd 40seconds.
put my practice for o lvl chi into weng lao shi's pigeon hole.
denn went home.
bathed and went to aunty's house
her doggie so cute
2months old only and its called yuki.
after tt went to uncle's shop for lunch.
denn plaza sing to find shop to fix my mp3.
there's none,
needa go to jurong east.
heck.
after tt went to kovan for some bank stuffs.
denn finally,
went to hougang mall for hair cut.
my fringe costs 5bucks.
woohhooo!!!!
hahahaha

me wann doggie!!!!!!
gonna call it eggy!!!!!
xD

2009-11-06T19:57:00.002+08:00

yea.

since angela challenged me openly on the tagboard.

HOHOHOHOHOHOHO.

angela, NICE SMILE!!!!

hahas.

today chem SPA.

ms low says cannot tell details.

so i shant.

after chem SPA gt locked up for 2 hours in meetin rm.

did CL revision.

denn after tt weng lao shi told me to go bck class and wait for her.

cause meeting rm gt ppl asking her questions.

denn went bck class and waited for an hour!

i was beginning to think tt weng lao shi forgt about me le.

so i decided to leave.

i locked up classrm and went to staffrm to call her.

but she's nt there,

so i feel tt she should still be in meeting rm.

and i walked bck to class.

denn saw peiyi and yanting.

i felt like crying suddenly..

damm...

denn i act act go toilet,

den in toilet i cried in a cubicle.

its the second time of my sec shcl life.

first time was sec1.

hahaha

denn i told myself am i stress?

and i cried even more.

and i asked myself am i angry at weng lao shi?

nothin happened..

so conclusion,

I AM STRESSED!!!!

heck.

washed my face until my eyes turn bck normal.

finally weng lao shi came and we started.

after tt i told weng lao shi tt i wanna go bck schl tmr to let her teach me compre and stuffs.

but she says no need.

i just hand in to her after i finished at home.

denn amanda told me gt choir.

oh shit.

i forgt.

but my eyes are really itchy and sore.

so weng lao shi told me i might have sore eyes since she and wanying both have sore eyes.

damm...

pray hard nothin wrong.

kkaes.

my idiotic sis rushing me now.

so gonna hand over to her.

HOHOHOHOHOHO

and she's right beside me now

hahahahahas.

2009-11-05T22:33:00.003+08:00

sending out my good luck charms,
though it's kinda late...
posting to GOH HUI RU, JASLIN CHUA, MANDY ONG and all other seniors from choir.
also posting to the ex-EXCOS. got 9, so i'm kinda lazy to type all out.
hahaha
pai sehh....
GOOD LUCK FOR O LVL.

also must tell all HCL students from sec 3 GOOD LUCK on tues.
xD

muggin now??
nope
i'm slacking...
shit
i noe its wrong
i feel terrible.
but my mind just cannot focus
dunno why...
AAARRRGGGHHHH!!!
tis is terrible.

really wanna get an A1 for CL.
so i'm promised myself to spend saturday doin chi revision.
and monday is the last day i get to consult the expert-weng lao shi.
hahahaha
have faith.....
yup.
xD

wish weng lao shi a quick recovery- though she's comin to schl tmr.
hahaha
she had a sore eye yesterday,
but she still came to schl
denn today apparently she didnt come to schl,
so she rested at home.
she's comin bck tmr during our lock up for 2 hrs.
hahaha
we're gettin lock up after chem SPA.
cause we're first shift.
hohohohoho..

denn today damm funny,
in the morning qiaopo came and says she forgt to bring phy practical bk.
i was like "OMG"
denn in the end,
she and runan went bck to her house and gt the bk.
since weng lao shi wasnt here,
they skipped tt period.
and after chi,
we had phy SPA practice.
pendulum...
aiyayayaya
my head spinning le.
and ms oh forgt to release us until 20mins l8er when she heard the 10.20am bell.
lost 20mins of break time.
didnt see angela or shuyi anywhere.
so paisehh...
i'll post their pics the nxt time denn.
to honour them!
hahahahaha

xD

2009-11-03T19:44:00.003+08:00

reply taggies:
yanting: yay!!! hahas.
angela: my blog is like tt de. no idea why...
T.RICIA: hahas. i realised tt too.

nowadays have extended programmes.

from 8am-12.30pm

nice.

only 4 subjects everyday.

kinda easy to cope.

anyway, everyday break time the recess only have noodle stall.

luckily right outside the schl gt pasar malam.

hohohoho

SPA assements very soon.

sian

dunno how to pass liao lahh

heck.

hooked up on A Psychic Eye Mystery series.

so NICE!!!

hahaha

cant wait for the nxt bk to be released nxt yr!

so tired.

nervous for o lvl?

not really...

boring life.

seriously NO LIFE.

dunno noe wad the hell i'm doin.

so bored.

BORED!

studying has become a chore.

heck.

2009-10-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JIEYI(JIAYI)!!!!!
kkaes.
i'm lazy
so gonna elaborate in a few days time.
now damm busy with council stuffs.
xD

2009-10-25T23:11:00.000+08:00

these ppl are so AWESOME.
here's ELLIOT MINOR.
xD

ROCK ON.

gonna check them out tomorrow.
now goin to sleep le.
xD

2009-10-25T22:23:00.006+08:00

reply taggies
kys- haha, so big also no use. not alot of ppl come. xD
angela- is the song called She Wolf? u find it at the playlist denn listen. its super nice lahh. where got scary.
wanling- thanks for agreeing tt my songs are nice. hohohohoho!

SUPER JUNIOR.... PRESENTING... SUPER GIRL
haha.
the guy at 00.58 is who?
never see him in super junior before.
and realise there's only 7 ppl!!!
so many super junior members are not in super junior M
and a mysterious guy is added??
why??!!!!
someone pls enlighten me!!!

today i totally slacked the whole day.
wasted one full day.
in the afternoon did some chi revision ws.
denn slept all the way till 6plus!!!!
its like... 2-3hrs?
lols.
kinda missed my mum even though she's comin bck today,
she's bck already so i'm feeling kinda better.
wanna read victoris laurie's books...
there's 5 i missed.
the total sequel is...

1)Abby Cooper, Psychic Eye
2)Better Read Than Dead
3)A Vision Of Murder
4)Killer Insight
5)Crime Seen
6)Death Perception
7)Doom With A View

and many more to come apparently..
its super nice lahh...
the red ones are those i haven read.
zzz...
went to national library website and found a link
http://catalogue.nlb.gov.sg/
totally useful.
can use to find books.
i'm thinkin whether i want to reserve the books..
but gt 5..
so total cost like $7.55
knida not worth it.
so i'll take my chances..
haiiz.

tomorrow no schl but have council forum.
N4 cluster thingy.
oh well..
i'm kinda messed up with her.
its my own problem.
but recently i felt tt she's more and more immature,
and always like to do things her way.
its always unnecessary and she's making small things seems like major events.
dun even noe why in the past i didnt mind.
zzz

last friday,
i suddenly felt like i dun belong there..
i put up a 'i love it!' front,
and totally dun understand myself after much reflection.
zzz
i dunno.
i dun feel tt i'm part of it,
and no matter wad events are arranged,
i kinda dun give a damm about it.
i dun think i hate it lahh,
just tt with my buddies gone,
it's kinda hollow.
if u noe wad i'm talkin about,
i'm not scolding anyone right now.
just talkin about myself.
and i said i dun think i hate it.
but i dun think i like it too.
so its kinda neutral.

right now,
i'm not even bothered about o lvls.
i've became numb already i think.
though i'm still a crybaby and cry over little stuffs.
the only major change in me is tt,
i'm crying more and more now a days.
and i seriously think there's something wrong with my mental health.
but if i', able to think it this way..
den maybe there's nothin wrong and i'm just thinkin too much.
hope so.

wanna take a break from my maths and chem teacher.
no offence,
but they suck.
i mean suck in teachin, not in person.
they're nice,
but the way they teach always leave me in a mess.
i dunno wad i'm learning and wad i've learnt.
though my maths results was great this time,
i feel tt i owe it to qiaopo instead of my maths teacher.
thanks qiaopo xD

now i'm a complete mess.
no goals in mind for o lvls or wad so ever...
but i wanna meet a guy like dutch rivers.
he's so cool, nice, gentle, PERFECT!
hahahaha.
he's a character in the victoria laurie's psychic eye mysteries books.
he's an awesome boyfriend.
hahahaha.
living in my imagination.

well,
gtg,
tomorrow is gonna be a long day from 9.15am - 5pm
and i needa wake up at 7.45am.
heck.
so tiring...

2009-10-24T13:28:00.002+08:00

reply taggies:
jingrong - thanks. i'm kinda better
angela - i'm not tt crude lahh.. just goona burn them into ashes soon... hahas jkjk. and my songs so nice! which one scary???
peiyi - yesyes. i'm honoured. xD

paisehh liyun...
cause just now council meeting mentioned about this pic.
hahaha
just thought tt its rather funny she sleeps with her eyes half-closed.
=p

meeting in the morning.
felicia overslept and in the end didnt go.
denn was so mad cause rushed to schl and everyone else late and took their time.
oh well.
talk talk talk.
denn went to compass and parted.
came home bathed and brought jieyi (jiayi) to hougang point for her breakfast cum lunch.

nothing much lahh
yesterday night before my mum went to malaysia,
had a trash down with her.
dunno if i can phrase it this way but anything.
zzzzz...
just got scolded only.
wadeva.

so bored.
continue to play.
hope something fun will come along.
xD

STUPID SHAMELESS FAMILY

2009-10-23T17:20:00.005+08:00

hahas.
got my IC.
i look so funny larh.

today sucks, BIG time
in the morning,
for no reason my mum started sayin i'm being rude and no manners etc.
i was like, wtf?
in a good mood drinking my water,denn she started babling.
and on the car?
she scolded me while claimin she's not.
and so i started crying.
she seriously just dont understand me.
c'b
she thinks i'm a fugly bitch tt wil never greet my neighbours and all.
well, to her disappointment, i do greet, smile and chat with anyone tts in the lift w me.
fcuk.
wad does she noe about me?
does she noe i've been cutting myself?
i had the urge to just take out my pen knife and cut myself in front of her on the car.
does she noe tt,
1) i've been puttin up a front sayin tt "i'm ok. nothin's wrong."?
2) i've been crying over my father's death these few days?
3) i've been thinkin of suicide so tt i'll no longer have to see the fatsos at home?
4) i've been hatin her sister, my aunt, for free loading in my house?
5) i've been so pissed off over her stupid sayin "u 3 kids are my precious." when obviously she cares about her lover MORE than she cares about us.
6) i'm a crybaby since the day i was born. i swear, she seriously think tt i'm a strong gal tt never cries, and when i do, she scolds me.
7) i wanna scream out loud about my stupid anut who is now controolin me and my sis like she's the owner of the house
.......
there's so many more she doesnt noe about me.
if i ever slam it out to her,
she'll just scold me and say i'm being rude and unreasonable.

I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!
THIS IS SO NOT THEIR HOUSE!
ITS MY LIVING SPACE.
I NEED MY PRIVACY!

2009-10-22T20:21:00.005+08:00

today went to dental.
so gt the dental pic.
hahaha
its a bus in the carpark at school
went during recess with farren, jialin and rachel.
took pics of them when its their turn
hahaha
my turn, the dentist/nurse told me to brush the back of my mouth...
with ultra force..
hahaha
no lahh.
just tt my wisdom tooth growing out at the left side. (bottom)
so food may get stuck in the gum arnd there.
xD
nothing much.
totally skipped newsreporting class.
its so super borin yesterday
so.. i wasted arnd 40$ cause tt course is like... 78$.
zzzz

seriously.

i'm utterly disappointed in myself.

i found the exams, not rather easy, but kinda super easy.

but denn my results sucks like hell.

just in case u think i'm babbling nonsense.

my chem - 21/40 & 55/80

yea.

and worst, my physic? 24/40 & 47/80

yea. yea.

i suck to the core

dunno wad happened.

its always like tt de lahh

i tink the test super diff,

i score well,

i think its easy,

i'm so dead.

and tt stupid idiot still down there "i'm so dead!" when he/she gt great marks.

i was so depressed and i started crying.

yea yea.

i'm such a crybaby i admit.

dunno why lahh

this yr super emotional.

i still cry over titannic though i watched it.... more than 5 times.

=.=

i cried when i watch many many movies and angela sitting beside me gonna fall asleep.

and tt time the april bride movie,

shuyi was totally sleepin lahh.

and i was crying so hard.

how dumb i must have looked.

=.=

anyway,

tomorrow got students forum.

i wanna complain... ahem, point out many many things lah!!

but heck.

i cant cause i'll be on top.

so i told ppl to help me.

hahas

so sly right??

hohohohohohoho

2009-10-21T20:08:00.002+08:00

got back results.
for paper lahh
let me use my superb memory and see wad i can remember
hmmm....

eng-25/50
hcl - 67/90 & 81/110
emaths - 58/80 & 80/100
amaths - no idea lehh... haben get bck
chem - also haben get bck
physic - 24/40 & 47/80
bio - 35/40 & 41/80
ss - 35/50

yeap tts about it.
cant believe i've done so bad.
flunk 2 sciences...
great.
now just wait for report book and o lvls.
hahahahahas.

having an online meeting now.
gtg.
xD

2009-10-20T20:57:00.002+08:00

feels so breathless today..
so difficult.
anyway,
watched rozen maiden 2nd season today.
hahas
12eps all in one day.
feeling proud of myself...
come to think of it, i finished 100+ eps of hitman reborn in 3days before..
lols
now reading book, its called DREAM GIRL.
nothing interestin until..
xD

not eatin rice, noodles....
anything with starch or flour,
i'm not gonna eat them...
why?
diet.
and cannot go OBS camp le.
my mum says this year,
i cannot go near the sea.
cause "water rooster", my zodiac, is not allowed to go near the sae,
otherwise i'll drown or something like tt.
sian.
but better be safe than sorry...
so... yea.
sadden at first but denn, i get a chance to go other camps.

tomorrow gonna start gettin all results back.
well, wads done has been done,
just waiting for the paper with lots of ink.
xD

gonna sleep early today,
the following week is a long and exhausting one...

2009-10-18T23:29:00.005+08:00

reply taggies:
angela: hahas. i see i see.

so tired after a day of outing.
went out with 6honesty today.
15 of us.
girls - me, hwiecheng, serene, xuying, siying, huimin.
boys - yuxiang, binghui, david, vincent, slyvester, ruiguang, jerry, prancer, jasmon.
first we met up at hougang mall mac for breakfast.
i ate at home btw.
after tt,
went to take bus 89 to pasir ris pasrk.
reached there and we waited for vincent awhile.
denn went to rent bicycle.
8$ for 2 hours.
xD
cycled cycled.
denn huimin suddenly roll down the hill..
siying thought huimin gonna die!
but... huimin's ok lahh.
denn siying, huimin and serene went to play spider web.
after tt, we cycled to arnd the sea.
sat at the break water with david, xuying and yuxiang.
denn the others are playin the frisbee and ball tt jasmon bought.
suddenly,
a woman came and asked siying wad name and wad schl.
yuxiang blur blur go tell her.
zzz
denn thge woman's husband just went up to siying and pushed her down.
siying didnt do anything larh!
denn they claim tt siying pushed their daughter.
heck.
and den the guy very overboard.
he said "u all smoke rite? u all take drugs rite?"
f.
he says his wife is a teacher and has seen many of us-this type of bad students
f.
and his wife scolded us "shut your asshole and fuck off"
=.=
she's a teacher??!!!
wth.
forgt to ask wad schl she from,
den go launch a complain.
damm her.
denn they called the police and we were all "fine. call lorr. we didnt do anything"
denn as we waited for the police,
the guy kept on scolding us like we're so in the wrong.
he stared at us and say "u all acting macho arr. huh?!"
f.
denn jerry, jasmon tried to calm him down,
and he said "u all shld go learn ur conflict management."
f.
and he even said "i noe the law better than u all do"
well, if he noes the law, he wouldnt have pushed siying down lah.
asshole.
we are so not bad kids can.
and its his fault lahh.
ppl playin spider web, he kept on shakin the web,
denn siying scold the guy, the wife scold siying fuck.
denn?
they came and accuse us.
=.=
lame shit.
yuxiang was so mad, if siying didnt pushed him aside,
he would have gave tt guy a good beating.
hmph.
denn police came and tt guy said
"the girl(siying) gonna hit me first, so i pushed her as self defence."
asshole lahh..
this kind of lie also dare to say.
siying's father came and the thing is kinda settled since its the couple makin a big fuss.
didnt bother and we just left and continued cycling while being extremely fcuked up.
x.x
after cycling,
we went bck to costal sands there and ate lunch.
suddenly, binghui went home... without tellin us.
=.=
denn yuxiang suggested we go kovan to bowl.
ok.
denn walk until bus stop,
we suddenly changed our mind cause david and .. someone, i forgt, dun wan to bowl.
so we went bck to ehub to watch movie.
left xuying at the bus stop cause she needa go botanic garden to watch a band performance.
we decided to watch IMAGINE THAT.
its the earliest show and its PG.
hahas.
we had 40minutes b4 the show start and we slacked arnd the arcade.
felt like sleepin and sittin down.
so the girls went to the neoprint station and sat down inside and took pics using hp.
LOL
after tt,
went to the cinema and had a guy to help take a grp photo.
denn went into the cinema and watched the show.
its very funny...
hahas.
when the show ended,
siying rushed out after she said gdbye.
xD
denn the rest of us went bck to hougang and seperated ways.
first we sent serene to bus stop 72.
denn all the rest went home.
me, david, hweicheng and yuxiang hanged out at the void decks.
chatted, played swing, listened to song..
denn david says he hungry so we went to coffee shop and look at him eatin.
yuxiang look like ah peck lahh
buy newspaper and drink teh.
lolx.
he has so many troubles reading the news.
hahaha
he said he wanna be a piano teacher when he grows up.
hmm... piano teacher can earn alot de lehh..
denn david wanna be a lawyer or businessman.
i wanna be a gynae and hwiecheng...
yu xiang didnt give her a chance to say lahh.
LOL
yuxiang turned to hwiecheng and asked "你长大要去扫那一条路?"
"so u grow up goin to sweep which road arr?"
hahahas.
denn after david ate, we went to the void deck and chatted again.
talked about the freako couple in the morning and said jokes.
denn yuxiang started sayin ghost stories from his schl.
i was so~ scared larh.
wth...
denn david's mum called and he needa go home.
so we parted.
me and yuxiang walked together.
seems like he really cared about his sis.
gd gd.
and he thought me a few techniques to fight off bad guys..
i only remember one though.
hahas.
reached home, bathed and uploaded pics i took onto facebook.
denn slept.
xD

later going to library.
and tomorrow goin for the obs health checkup.
zzz
suddenly dun feel like goin obs le..
sian.
aiyayayayaya

2009-10-17T14:16:00.002+08:00

songs from April Bride.
SUPER NICE!!!!

JUJU Feat JAY'ED - 明日がくるなら

JUJU - The Rose

2009-10-16T23:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIYUN!!!!!

feeling damm tired while typing this...
its my second time retypin this thing.
zzz

went out with angela, shuyi, jingrong, yokeling, peishan, jieyi and si xuan.
we met up at plaza sing mrt station.
and XX saw her ex-boyfriend!!!
lols.
denn we went to buy tickets for movie.
April Bride.
after we bought the tickets,
went to swensons for lunch.
this person, (sixuan)
dun wan eat dun eat lah.
seriously, complain so much,
spoiled all our mood.
anyway,
after lunch,
rushed up to cinema,
the movie was crap.
but from the middle to the endin was touching.
cried a little here and there.
and denn at the ending,
teared like hell...
oh man~
and while i was crying so hardly, shuyi was sleepin..
=.=
contrast...
after the movie,
jingrong, peishan, yokeling, jieyi and sixuan went home.
left me angela and shuyi,
denn we went hunting for verna's b'dae present.
suddenly angela's phone rang and shuyi's phone was calling.
but the thing is, shuyi didnt bring her phone,
so her parents called...
denn she called bck and was asked to go home...
great.
left me and angela.
we went walk walk.
found verna's present and went yoshinoya for dinner.
after tt walk walk again.
this time saw many types of shops.
gt showcasing swords, selling cosplay costumes, SAN's bookstore etc.
so cool!
never thought plaza sing was so interesting.
denn felt tired so went down to take mrt.
but b4 tt we went walkin in circles to find supper.
didnt get any in the end..
lols.
gt to mrt station and saw our train leaving..
great we missed a train.
denn 2nd one,
too full le so missed again.
and 3rd one, the guys are so ungentleman!
so we missed again.
4th one, we die die also must get in,
so chionged inside.
lols.
den chatted all the way.
alighted at hougang interchange and nearly fell asleep when i was on bus.
reached home at arnd 10.40pm.
washed my legs and lied on my bed and slept.
denn woke up after a few mins to get a change of clothes.
after tt came to blog.

might be going for a hair cut tomorrow.
dun like my fringe le...
so long and stick to my face.
gonna cut it!
hmph.
hahas.

2009-10-16T12:55:00.002+08:00

tag replies,
farren: my exams also end le!!! *clapps
angela: walao.. i so scared u down there excited. u arr...
its really scary lahh. when i can move i nearly cried lehh..><
wanling: linked!!!! xD

feel kinda low...

no idea..

so bored after exams.

hahas

hmm...

wad shld i do other than slack..

going out with frens. yeap!

watch new anime. depends...

haiiz...

i thought of reading elicipse...

hmmm....

i'll try it out maybe.

but wanna read cecilia ahern's bks first.

they're really nice cause gt alot of twist and turns.

hahas.

BIOBIOBIO!!!

2009-10-15T14:00:00.000+08:00

LOVE LESLIE
張國榮 - 追